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You lied..

You all did

And still do..

But why to me?

Why couldn’t you tell someone else your cute little lies to...?

Why did it have to be me?

I don’t deserve all this

The words that are coming out of your mouth.. they are all lies

You don’t mean any of them

And you never had



I just realized it..

Because if you’ve meant them, I wouldn’t be in this mess

I wouldn’t feel like a failure

Like I’m the problem you couldn’t keep your word

Or maybe you didn’t want to keep your word

Maybe it was all part of your plan..

Make me fall in love only to leave my heart in pieces



I swear..

People on this planet suck

At least the ones I bump into and get to know



You didn’t deserve to get to know me the way you did

No one did

R

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Need to start to realize who’s actually there for me and cares






As I wrote that, I realized I don’t have any friends left

So it’ll be pretty easy

Lovely..

R

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Even forever has an expiration date...



R

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Since he said he needed time, needed space away from me...

I think I'm gonna take some time and space myself from blogging.

I'm not sure what more space he needs since he is in Italy and I'm in Sweden..

But if time away is what he wants and needs then that's what I'll give him..


I just feel like maybe I'm not the girl who can turn his "always" to "forever".

Or "jail" into "love"..


I don't know...

Maybe I'm doing it wrong..

Love,

R

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That’s what he said..

If time is what he needs then time he’ll get

As much as it breaks my heart to hear those words

I can’t do anything about it, can I..?

If I’m making him more sad than happy..

Then maybe.. I don’t know

I just..

Giving him what he wants because I can’t force anyone to be with me

I’m not sure what to think

At this moment I just wish I could switch my emotions off for a little

Love,
R

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I wish I could just let things go real fast

But I’m getting upset faster than I get over stuff

It takes a lot of time for me to just accept and let it be

I’m really trying to work on it

But I just realized how hard it is...

Urgh

Love,
ThroughMyEyes

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My Day

It all works out in the end..!!!!!!!

I’m so so so so sooooo happy

So happy that I’m not sure if I want to share my news Hahahah

I’ll give it a few more days to sink in and all!!

Oh my gooooodddd!!!!

Don’t be afraid to explore
Love,
ThroughMyEyes

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I just feel a little devastated
A little sad
A little ... broken maybe

I don’t know why

Why do I always get myself into messes I can’t emotionally handle?

R

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Hey blog..

I realized that I jinx myself a lot..

And I also realized that whenever I tell someone a small detail about something I'm excited about..

It never happens.

And I'm left with a lot of questions from them...

Which leaves me ramble some awkward reply.

And try to ignore the topic.


So it's better if I keep all my plans to myself.

And if it ends up good I would spill everything.

If not, then there's nothing to share.


I should learn to keep my mouth shut and not make everything around me or everything I want turn into a huge disaster.

It's better like that.

I think everyone I'm surrounded by would like that.

Love,

ThroughMyEyes

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I just feel so worthless right now..

It's been a while since I just sat on the floor and let my emotions take over..

And now it just happened...

I always jinx myself.

Stupid, I know..


I just don't want to be around at the moment...


I mean..

I know that everything works out in the end.

And I'm stupid for even crying at non important stuff..

I don't know.


I wish I had a clearer plan but I don't...

I'm just here..

Existing..


When I wish I didn't.


Ahh... Whatever..

Who cares anyway..?

No one AHahah...


But thank you for reading my messed up post..

I think I just need this day to rest my mind a little..:)


Everything is gonna be okay.

I just need to believe that.

​Love,

ThroughMyEyes

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