Hi again peeps! In this blog post I'm going to tell you about the worst "almost" nervous break down. This Friday (its Monday today and I'm home sick :/) I where going to have my last lesson and then go to the capital to shop on Black Friday. But that lesson was a lesson from hell. I began with the teacher saying I was missing from class even tho I said yes when she said my name. I had to scream at her in front of the whole class so she would not put in the program thing that I was not there. As some of you may know I have social anxiety and gets small panic attacks if I need to speak in front of a group of people so "screaming" like that already scared the crap out of me.
After the scream thing I felt like everybody was watching me and I needed to just run out of class and break down but if I did that what would people think? So I had to deal with my anxiety in my head and just calm myself dow wile I felt tears that wanted to just let lose. That is something that I still until this day thinks about and I gives me nightmares. Maybe for you this seems like no big deal but for me this was terrifying so please if someone know anything you can do to help with this please comment. And if you have the same thing please comment what you do about it.
Totally me still being totally me, XXX'