Dear loves,
a lot has been going on these last weeks and to be honest it has been a hard time for me. That's why I haven't been active on my blog. Because it's very personal and I wasn't sure if I wanted to share it. But I feel like I want to tell you anyway. So let me explain my feelings.
Maybe for those who follow me on Instagram have noticed me travelling a lot, and yes I have. But that doesn't mean everything have been going smooth. I'm a very sensitive person with messed up thoughts sometimes. And people tend to misunderstand me because of the way I show my feelings. I hate to disappoint people or let people down. But let's face it, you can't make everyone happy. No matter how hard you try. So that's why I stopped trying to please everyone.
School, family and friendship problems all hit me at once. I've been very stressed about a deadline, that I have been working on these past 2 months. Finally I can say it's over and it feels like a relief, but I'm still nervous about the results. In the middle of my deadline my dad had 2 operations. So I had to go back to Denmark to visit my family. He is fine now, but he had pain when we visited him at the hospital. Where it was the last time I saw him, before my flight heading back to Milan. It made me emotional. But I know he is strong, since he survived cancer back when l was in elementary.
In between that I had to visit some friends, while doing projects. One of these friends wanted to talk about our friendship. Since from being together 24/7 to only see each other every 1-3 months. It can be hard to always catch up when you are far. But we always figure and talk things out. So in all, a long distance shouldn’t keep friends from staying connected right?
The last thing that has been bothering me, is that I have felt that some people have pushed/forced me to take decisions that I honestly didn't want to. I know I should learn how to say no, but I sometimes I wanna show respect for them. Even if it means I disrespect myself. But I have learned that it's a big mistake. You should NEVER say yes if you don't feel like doing it. I'm still in process of self-improvement. So I can learn to respect myself without getting affected by other people's opinions. Listen to yourself and don't put your feelings aside for anyone else.
XX M
