How is everyone? We are doing great besides the runny noses and Noah's cough. Finally, it is just Noah and me and even though help is appreciated, it is so nice to be alone with just my little one. It really does make a big difference in our life because I can finally feel like the mother I am, and not feel like I have to adapt to anyone. We can get into our routines and live by our own rules and it feels wonderful to be a "real little family" and my own boss so to say. It is really difficult to be a feel like an actual parent when there are other people around putting opinions in your head all the time. I can breath and be myself. We all need that as parents, to make sure we put ourselves in the right priority if that makes sense? I've also noticed a huge difference in Noah as well. He is a lot more relaxed with just the two of us and I notice that new traits of his personality really shine through now. Noah has even started to like daycare more ever since his days there got longer even though he always cries when I drop him off. He's made friends that he's excited to see and waves goodbye to when I come to pick him up. Some days he doesn't even want to leave daycare haha. Work is still going well for me, and I am enjoying getting things done and being useful to the community, and I think it is good for my mental health to keep busy and stay distracted. I just wish I didn't have to be away from my little sweetie for so long during the day. Well, well, that is life I guess.
Oh my Noah, it is him and me, always. I get so mad at myself when I let other people think that they have any say in my parenting or how Noah should be raised. It tears me. I am going to work on standing up for myself, and realise that it is ok for me to tell people to back off, even if they get upset. That is a parents roll, to be the strong one. I am his mother, and I love doing it on my own. The only other person who is allowed to co-parent is his father, and that is just how it is. You and me, little man <3 my reason for living.