-Being a single parent is twice the work, twice the stress and twice the tears but also twice the hugs, twice the love and twice the pride.Today I admitted to myself that I am a single mom. I suppose I always have been, but I have been fighting so hard to make sure that Noah has two stable parents. But it takes two people to make a relationship work, and now I have finally admitted that it will not ever work if one is holding on to dear life, trying to make everyone happy, and the other one has too much pride to do anything but bring the other person down, always acting like the victim. I've been in denial for far too long. I've been hurting for way too many days, cried too many tears and protected those who don't deserve it too many times. I won't be able to make my son happy, if I'm not happy myself, nor will I make him strong if I don't show him strength. So instead of fighting for something that only brings me down and makes me weak, I am now going to let myself heal and fight for Noah to have the happiest childhood possible. I am going to be his mother, his father, his shoulder, his rock, his nurse, his cook, his chauffeur, his event planner, his repairman, his maid, his teacher, his doctor, his defender and his protector. Because I am not just a mother, I am a single mother, and from now on, I am going to say that proudly because I will work twice as hard for his happiness. I won't let my life be poisoned anymore because there is no way in hell, Noah is ever going to be effected by that venom.
I can't understand in the slightest, how a person can choose anything over their own children. How their needs are bigger than their children's. I don't get it and I never will. I will always put my child and any future children I may have first and I will ALWAYS be there for them to lean on. Always <3