I want to clear this up once and for all. I honestly thought that I was surrounded by adults who'd learned how to respect each other and mind their own business, but apparently not everyone has quite been taught that lesson that I like to call common sense. I for one seriously don't need young teenagers I've never met add me on Facebook to judge and question my life, and I don't need nosy people who don't know me to comment on my life situation or judge me for that matter. I am well aware of my situation, I know it is not normal, and I obviously know that people will talk, I am ok with that, but please respect my privacy. I have this blog, where I feel I am pretty open about my life so please read about it here instead. It is inhumane to mess with peoples feelings by making stories up about others lives. Don't assume that I am some evil spawn of satan because Noah doesn't meet his father everyday or because we don't go to Australia more often. People can obviously have their own opinion about me, but once again I want to defend myself by telling my truth. First of all, one reason I don't go to Australia all the time is because I simply can't afford it. I am not made of money and it is more than just a plane ticket, it is living over there as well. Another reason is because every time I go, I have to put my life on hold in the 'real world'. I don't work or study, I can't look for daycare being half way across the world and the longer I put all that off, the tougher it will be for me. "So why don't you move to Australia?" Ah, another question I have to hear about all the time. The truth is, I am a traveller and I have moved around the world a lot and I want to continue that way. I have already lived in Australia and as beautiful and amazing as the country may be, it is simply not a place I want to live and raise my kids in. Why that is I'll share in another post. And honestly even if I wanted to live in Australia, right now, neither Noah nor myself would have the legal right to stay for over three months. I am hoping desperately that Noah soon can become an Australian citizen so that he can one day decide for himself where he wants to be. Another thing I often feel judged about is leaving Australia while I was pregnant. I've probably written about this 100 times on my blog, but clearly I never get the message across so once again I left Australia while I was pregnant because I felt like that was the best decision for my son. Laityn and I had close to nothing and we kept living in our own fantasy world thinking that one day we will have it good but the truth was that time was running out and we didn't have much to offer. Now that I left, I've been able of give Noah everything that he deserves. If I wouldn't have left, Noah would have become an Australian citizen automatically, and chances are, I would have been forced to leave the country when my visa expired without my son. That was a chance I was not willing to take. Noah being with his father and gaining a relationship with him is not something that I feel is entirely my responsibility. I have done and will continue to do what I can to make sure that they are stable in each others life, but there is only so much I can do. The rest is up to Laityn, he knows that and now all I can do is have faith that he will come here to visit as often as I am willing to go visit him. I will absolutely go back to Australia for the sake of the two of them. That is Noah's blood and we have friends and family that we miss and love. I will spend my whole life encouraging a healthy relationship between Noah and his father. And of course do I hope and pray that we can all come to a much simpler solution in the near future.
I can accept the fact that people like to gossip, I'm a person to, I also do it. But I have my blog, this is the truth, this is all I want to share, anyone is welcome to read it and all I am asking in return is that people respect my choices and my life. Thaaaank you, oh, so very much!!