Hello my dear friends.
I didn’t write these days because i had some problems, family problems.
Last Friday one of my aunties have died and the very next day my grandmother also. My dads mom, the one i ve told you about. The one that have help us when we were at the country side. It was a very hard time for me and still is. Trying to get upp because i also have this day by day problems, going to social having little work. You know, in my life is that time when the life hits you directly in your face. Until now i was so secure about my life and about what i am doing you know but the life slap my face and wake me up. I just see my self with so many problems so many things to do and everything is o. My shoulders. I don’t have any support here in Sweden, someone to tell me do that or not or just advice me or anyhow. Matheus is the only one that is taking me out from this stress and makes me feel good. Even if sometimes or most of the time i feel scared about what s comes i just try to go through it like i am good. But i guess everyone know that u cant lie yourself. Even if you do lie yourself in your soul still feel the pain and the gravity of the things. This two person that have just died have played a great role in my life and right now i really feel that we are so weak as humans, we are so easy to break. Now we are, now we are not. Our bodies resist so many things but at the same time we can be crushed like an ant. One of the most fears i have now is that, what if i am with Matheus home and i hit my self or i fall down or i pass out or whatever things happen? There is no one to call me or to care, and my fear is about what he will gonna do? He still cant talk, he cant call someone do something. And here i realize that we are so weak. This life is so hard sometimes. We are happy very happy but thats just the image on our face. Happiness is a feeling hard to find and when we find it so fast flies away.
Take care of you my friends and spread love ❤️
Hello my dear friends.
Hello my good friends.
I want to talk today with you about the good new i received today.
Ill move from Karlskoga closer to my son which is a important thing for me, because ill be a little more closer and ill not spend so much money on fuel. It s hard because my car is broken and i use the company car and i am nit feeling so comfortable about it. Anyways it s a house with a yard where Matheus can play outside allot and it s 18 km from Örebro. It s a very quiet place and finally i am going to have a contract for this rent. Until now I didn’t feel comfortable because I didn’t have a contract so the owner could throw me out whenever he wanted. I couldn’t feel safe because my job is a timme contract, we can work or we don’t so is pretty scary. Why is scary? Because i have a son here and because of that if i don’t have work for 2,3 months the rent wasn’t on contract if i would have 2 or 3 months and some bad situations i could fly from Sweden and of course i would lose my contact with my son. Thats why i ve struggle so much to have a contract rent and i also hope for a permanent jobb because this is like an insurance for me to stay here. I know people haven’t been on my situation, to be in another country and you can in one second lose everything and return back “home” and that means Romania because I don’t really have a home there i have nothing there. So, yes ill move in maybe 2 months and i am very happy for that and i love the house, i will post some pictures later on when ill move of course.
So, i want also to tell you guys that one of my biggest dreams to travel to Africa is going to happend.
I think you have guess from my early blogs in my stories that i haven’t travel no where not even in Romania, we couldn’t afford that. This for me means allot is like a dream come true and i cant wait to go. I just hope this coronavirus wont stop me go there because i have read that is in Sweden also. Tomorrow ill take my son i cant wait to see him again i have been with him on Wednesday and ill have him in weekend also. I hope all the best to everyone guys and don’t forget to leave a comment good or bad it s all good take care and spread love ❤️
Hello my dear friends
Today i am going to continue with my story. So, after i found my mom the first thing i asked her was, “ why she left and why she left us there, me and my brothers”. Her answer was, “ because i don’t like the village life and i don’t want to be with your father anymore”. I said ok, because you don’t want to be with my dad i understand kind of, i cant say i could but this wasn’t bothered me more than why she left me and my brothers with an alcoholic dad. My sister had 8 years old she was little. She needed her mom because she was also sick. Life in Rumänien is hard, and i say this because there is not like in Sweden. And what i want to say is that, here in Sweden when kids are around 18/22 years old they move from their parents house. And they do this because if they have a jobb any jobb they can afford it. The parents can help them a little. In my country is not like that, i know it sounds strange but there are people 30/40 that still live in the same apartment with their parents. Because rent is big and salaries, monthly wages are so small so u cant afford it.
Ok, so in my grandmas apartment that was 2rok was living my uncle with his wife, my mom, my grandma and now me that i was there. Of course i was asking my mom to take my brothers there also but my uncle started to fight with my mom and my grandma because we are many and we can live there bla bla bla. In the end my sister have came there because my brother said refused to come. Anyway the second thing i did i asked my mom for some money so i can buy clothes because i had allot of friends there at her place i kind of grow there also because in my country on summer time we could live at my grandparents one month or one and half. We anyway always bee there most of the time when we live in Bucharest. So i had allot of friends there I couldn’t go out like a homeless. I forgot to say that i quit my school because we had an exam to do which was not in our village. It was the last exam we have to take the diploma so you can continue forward to high school and i couldn’t do it because we need ed to pay around 25€ for the buss to drive us there and back and i didn’t have that money in any way. So anyways she have gave me money and we have a very big are with chinese stores there was around 2000 maybe more stores out there. Very cheap things. Once i go there i see in front of the stores a piece of paper which sais they hire sellers for the store. I was tall and not looking like a really 14 year old guy so after a while walking between that stores i have made courage to ask some of them. And i did, of course they refuse me, around 5,6 stores said no but to the last one they said, “ yes we need but i think you’re to young, how old are you?” I said almost 18. They said ok you come tomorrow with your id and we will hire you. Keep in mind that the stores there where working like a black market low taxes paid, people didn’t have contracts. So next day i come there and she have asked me if i have my id, of course I didn’t, she said oh ok, bring it tomorrow. Next day i did same thing and for another few days same until she didn’t asked me anymore. So i get a job when i was around 14 and half. The salary was around 70€ per month, it was nothing but anyway something. So i ve started work like a normal adult, everyday wake up around 4:30, because at 5:30 we must open the store already that were stores that just sell for another stores they were suppliers. You couldn’t buy from every store just one tshirt or one pair of shoes. Not everyone would sell that but being a black market you could negotiating. So there my life have start like an little adult i can say 😂. I was working i was saving little by little give to my grandma little for food and that was all. After 2 years because of my uncle my grandma have needed to sell the apartment and we moved with her in a rent apartment and there was little harder because it was far away from where i worked, i needed to wake up even early and was so hard for me. More than that in the winter because the store was just outside not inside we needed to stay in the cold in front of the store at -10/-15 degrees was a hell of a jobb in winter but beautiful the rest of the year.
I think thats all for today my friends i hope all the best for you and spread love ❤️