It is Tuesday and a school day. My Tuesdays and Thursdays are really rough days for me. Having class from 8:25am to 2pm literally gives me anxiety. LOL I know it might sound funny, but when you go to bed late, classes in the morning are just killing you. By the way, I went to bed at 1:30am.
Tonight is a winter formal party at our school and there is that one guy who really wanted me to be his date for tonight. To be honest, I have never been at a prom or a formal and I dont really know if I want to change this. I feel like this formal is way too much like "high school". Childish kinda, but this is my opinion. Anyway, he wanted me to go and I just said I cant, because I do not really have a dress with me. Poor guy. I have been seeing this guy now for two times in a row and I just have to say he is way too nice. Like literally wayyyy too nice. Instead of appreciating it, I'm feeling weird about this, cause nobody ever treated me this way. I am used to men being different to me. Not always in a bad way, but just playing with me and making jokes all the time. And Mr. X (the guy who invited me to formal) is just trying so hard with me. Like he is adorable! Like I'm telling you... he is such a gentleman. Paying me food already and opens the door everytime, even if its just the car, and he even gives me his hand while I'm getting out of the car. I mean guys... That is just another world! Next to that he is always apologizing for everything and he tries so hard not to swear.
Even though I have set goals for 2018 like being independent and to love myself first before anybody else can love me. I know this sounds super cheesy, but it is just me. I really wanna focus on myself and get good grades in school and reach my goals before I fall for someone again.
Right now I'm in my English class and we have computers in front of us and for some reasons I just cant be bothered to listen to my teacher. I literally have no clue what she is talking about lol. Well anyways, I think I should stop blogging and start listening to my teacher to reach my goal and get that bloody 4.0 GPA!