I really don't know how to start this. I am sitting here, at the dinner table I have spent so many dinners together with you these last months, and I feel so empty. I have been looking forward to this day so many days, when it's been hard, and now when we finally are here it completely breaks my heart. This morning when we were gonna get you dressed you asked "how many days is it until you leave?" and I answered that my last day together with you is tomorrow. You asked me if I am happy about leaving and I, without thinking, answered no. These past 10 months together with you have been overwhelming, terrible, amazing, funny and you have taught me so many things. You have made me both laugh and cry.
There have been days when I have completely hated to be here. When I hated to work with this, because of how hard it is. Maybe much harder than people actually imagine. I can honestly say that I never thought it would be like this and I was on my way to leave in the middle of my year, but now I am sitting here with tears on their way and I realize how much I will miss my little dear Faustine. I have no words left to write down. Can't you just come home from the doctor now so I can give you a million hugs and kisses? So I can read you a good night story one last time.
Je t'aime tellement et tu vas me manquer.