My all time favourite songs of Taylor.
... Even if they are taking an awful a lot of time to come.
"I am lonely." Three such strong words. When I realised that lonely is what I feel, and that that's what's feeding my anxiousness, I freaked. It felt like such a bad thing to be, almost worse than being bad or mean. I felt ashamed, as if it was pathetic to be lonely and even worse to admit it. To move abroad is a weird thing on an emotional level, it has fucked me up and made me grow at the same time. I moved for love and left everything behind. I left my friends, family, university, job, my cats and so many other things that I feel like I've lost and miss dearly.
But I believe in the good things coming and because of that, most days I'm fine.
But some days I'm not fine, I can't stand it, I can't stand being lonely. I feel like falling down and curling up into a ball and just laying on the floor. I feel like I don't have a friend in the world, even though I know that's not true. I feel like not even the reason I moved here, my love, is loving me. I feel like I shouldn't love myself. It damages my soul and it burns in my mind. I am lonely. It's stuck on the inside of my lids, staring at me every time I close my eyes. It makes me cry and wish I didn't leave, makes me look at flight tickets and start saving money just in case I panic and need to go home.
But I believe in the good things coming.
Some inspiration for fall! I am currently trying to downsize my wardrobe and turn it into a capsule wardrobe. Since moving to the UK I have only had a very small wardrobe cause there's only so much you can fit into a suitcase! However, it's been an eyeopener about how little I actually need. So the last couple of weeks I've been sorting through all my stuff and are planning on donating almost all of it (some things have stains so don't think nobody want them). I've been using a few guidelines to know which pieces I love and which ones are just filling up my wardrobe and making me feel like I have nothing to wear.
1. Do I love it?
If you don't love it, or if it isn't a great basic piece, then does it deserve a place in your wardrobe? I think that what you put on your body affects a great deal of your mood and therefor I just want to wear thing that makes me feel fantastic!
2. Does it fit me/does it flatter my body?
You should wear what you think looks good on you. Trends are great but learn what flatters your body and what makes you feel good and comfortable and stick with it. Maybe you like yourself in high waisted jeans or in dresses or in short sleeved tops. Whatever makes you feel bomb!
After getting rid of some things and clearing up some space I am allowed to go shopping, woop woop! I have started using Polyvore to create my Basic Capsule Wardrobe and also to figure out some extra pieces that fit me and my style and that adds a little zing to an otherwise very basic and versatile wardrobe. Might sound a little boring, but that's what I like since it makes it really easy (and therefor fun!) to style myself in the morning everyday.