So it seems appropriate that I should call out what I mean by an EATING DISORDER.
Firstly, the HUGE fact (in my book anyhow and many other BOPO warriors) you do not have to have an unhealthy BMI or weigh a ridiculously small amount to be classified as having an eating disorder.
I'm going to stick to anorexia nervosa and orthorexia nervosa as that is what I have been treated in and that is what have experience of to the degree I feel I can talk about :) All eating disorders are 'legit' and to not be taken lightly. I should also say- this isn't a badge of honour, this isn't a cry for help, these are genuine sicknesses and my own mother compared it to a disease of the mind. Its horrible, its real, but the biggest thing is- you can take steps to pull yourself out of it! You have the power to beat it, no one said it would be easy- but identifying with some or all of these symptoms will set you on track for the first hurdle of this marathon- IDENTIFICATION.🙌
-Obsessive control and counting of calories.
-Excluding food groups. e.g. sugar, carbs.
-Obsessive and addictive exercise.
-Need to be in control.
-Aggression and anger.
-Withdrawal from social situations.
-Angry and nihilistic thoughts about yourself.
-You will be ultra-sensitive to the cold.
-Loss of weight.
-Fine downy hair (lanugo) growing on the body.
From personal experience, I became TERRIFIED when I realised I suffered from all of the above. It was a horrible and lonely place to be- but being anorexic is an equally awful place of isolation- and it is only by identifying your illness that you can recover and begin to enjoy life again! Its baby baby steps but this is a HUGE first leap into recovery.
Check out the NHS website to find out more plus a cool little video on the right hand side if you don't fancy reading more text!