CW/TW sexual harassment.
You feel like a prey.
It was supposed to be a fun night, dancing, drinking, having fun with my friends.
There's no space, people everywhere pressed against each other in this tiny space called dance floor, people all around you, being way too close for you to be comfortable.
But you dance. Because that's what you do on a dance floor when there's music.
You dance. But you don't lift your arms up in the air, you don't really move around, you try to keep your movements limited and small. Because you don't want to attract any attention, so you're making yourself small.
Because suddenly, there's another body pressed against you. There's a hand. A touch you didn't allow, a touch you didn't want.
And it doesn't matter how small you make yourself out to be or how much clothes you're wearing. A risk of that body, that unwanted hand, is still equally as big.
And it probably won't take long until you stop going to these places. You stop, because the annoyance that occurs every single time is greater than the fun.
But the fact that this happens to almost every single female, is crazy. The fact that you feel like a prey as they're hunting to feast, the fact that they feel allowed to touch your body without your consent. The fact that you have to make yourself small, or even distance yourself from the situation entirely. The fact that your body isn't viewed upon as a body, but an object.
Written February 17th 2018.