I’m currently lying on the sofa after having some Lebanese food while watching friends, let me tell ya.. this is heaven for me!
My mood is severely up and down at the moment and after suffering from a nasty cold for over a week, I am finally starting to feel better.
So what have I been up too? Well last week was a bit of a nightmare health wise and ended with the GTT test (glucose tolerance test), which I absolutely hated! For you all who might not know what that test is or does; it checks if you have gestational diabetes. From my understanding hospitals tends to do the test differently, however it is essentially two different blood tests taken at different times on an empty stomach and drinking a very sugary and disgusting drink. They compare the blood test before the drink with after the drink to check whether you have it or not. It is usually a two hour wait between the blood tests and by the time I was doing my second test, I was so dehydrated and exhausted that they couldn’t find any veins. It took forever and my arm is still bruised!
I was feeling really rough the whole day and when I woke up the following morning I still felt strange and noticed that baby P wasn’t moving how she normally does. By now she has her little pattern that I know really well and as the day went by I just couldn’t feel her being her “normal” self. I called the triage and was told to come in because reduced movements etc is taken very seriously and you’d always rather be on the safe side! So ladies - don’t hesitate to call the triage if you get worried!!
When we got to the hospital, they monitored her heartbeat for over 30 min to check that it was stable. Little miss diva had curled herself up in the strangest position so it took a while for the machine to read her heartbeat properly. Probably the longest 5 min of my life! Anyways, she was doing fine so they sent me home and also gave me the results from my GTT test, not even close to having gestational diabetes but my iron levels were borderline low so I have been given tablets to take to boost it up. I hope the tablets will perk me up a bit because I am getting exhausted soooo much quicker at the moment.
I have nearly fallen asleep 5 times while writing this. No joke!
We had our growth scan today and baby P has been growing perfectly! No growth abnormalities detected and she’s getting the perfect amount of oxygen from my placenta and the cord. It made us so happy! I was really worried something would be wrong or needing extra attention so to hear that she’s doing perfectly fine really removed a heavy weight from my shoulders!
I’m so close to being 10 weeks away from meeting her and the thought is just so crazy to absorb at times!!!! In just over 10 weeks my baby girl will be here and life will change totally. It is such a BIG thing to grasp. My baby daughter! She’s here with me right now, I can feel her move and kick and for the next ten weeks I’ll feel her even more before it’s time to give birth to her.
I just can’t believe it... it all hits me every now and then and my whole being fills with so much joy and love. A love that’s too big to comprehend and I haven’t met her yet. I’m so ready for all the changes that comes with being a parent, the good and the bad. It might sound naive to some of you or some may think “hah, She’ll regret that after x amount of sleepless nights”. But I don’t think so, because in my world family is everything! I have had my selfish years, I have done me, me and my husband have had 7 amazing years together and we are so ready to expand now. So even the struggles, cries, sleepless nights doesn’t weight up to the happiness and joy we will feel soon. Or that we are already feeling!
Everything will be more than okay! I am a firm believer that you Grow through what you Go through and that life never hands you anything you simply cannot handle. Good and bad.
I can get a bit frustrated with not knowing or being in control of what’s to come soon but even when I’m in the midst of a tantrum I realise how unnecessary it actually is because everything ALWAYS works out the way it’s supposed to! Not once have I been put in a situation I haven’t had the strength or ability to overcome.
I’m not going to lie, the thought of not working is what stresses me out the most. Only because I have never done that before and not sure how I’ll react to it, what doors it’ll open or close? But then again.. it doesn’t matter to try and analyse that now, time will tell.
It will all be OK! More than OK! Actually pretty damn perfect.
Remember that xx