Hello to anyone that reads
Im positive that we've all heard the phrase: what do you want to be, when you get bigger? or where do you see yourself in 10 years?.
My goal has always changed over they years, to just name a few things that i wanted to be: princess, magician, designer, model, breakdancer, actress, singer, the president of United states( don't laugh, I was a kid), queen, mangaka and many more.
But i never said those things when asked.
So where did I see myself when asked these question? an author.
It's kinda funny, because I used to hate reading, I hated everything about it, and I was so bad at it, that I had to get extra lessons, so I could keep up with my classmates. That all changed, when there came a big change in my life, we moved home from one side of Denmark to the other side, and the hardest part about that for a 12 year old, is leaving her friends to start over in a new school. Now I didn't have the best of luck at making friends, I'm a pretty shy person, but in middle school I barely talked. I wanted so confident, talkative bold and have the strength to get out of my shell, but my anxiety, kept me back. What did i use to escape this lonely reality? the thing that i used to hate: reading. I loved that you could escape reality, to escape to another universe, where kings ruled and dragons flew, where the teenager got her happy ending and relationship got born out of nothing. I feel in love with the beauty of books, the smell, the felling of turning a page, the mystery and the magic.
When people asked me, what do you want to be when you grow older, i always gave them the same answer: an author!. Ive wrote countless of stories, all of them unfinished, they are all my babies haha that is stuck in my head. Ive never let anyone read my stories, except for two times, where i got to write whatever my heart desired. In middle school, I wrote a poem, and my teacher thought I stoled it from the internet (it was that good of a poem). In high school, i wrote a paper, about my childhood, and when i got my paper back, the teacher told me that I wrote beautifully and had potential as an author. That gave me hope, and more desire to accomplish my dream.
But as time has passed, i forgot about that dream.
When I was 16 my goal was to have written a book at the age of 18, but at the age of 18 i had forgotten all about those dreams. So what does that mean, I suddenly don't want to be an author? I'm certainly not studying to become an author. Now I have a dream about working with fashion and PR, and that is pretty far from an author that writes fiction. Ive come to the conclusion, that i love and want both. I will never really give up on my dream of becoming an author, even though it feels as if i will never get the time for it, while I'm studying Business Communication. Or maybe I can combine those two, who nows? There is so many options, and I've finally come to terms, thats everything doesn't have to be set in stone, and while I'm figuring out what life is about, i might as well enjoy the ride.
(i was eating that sandwich while i was writing)