Well-well-well, all right then...hiiiii...There is quite a good tradition to end the year with some overview about it, figuring out what was good and what was bad, what did we learn and what would be better to not bring with us to a new year.
I like thinking and I like planning and I like when in my head there is a structure of what is going on. But 2018 for me was the year of chaos. I've started thousands of projects and none of them was finished. Everything is hanging in the air. But the good news is I've learnt how to live with it. That's life, ya know. And I can't conjure to make all this shit done. Before I literally could not go to sleep when I had some unfinished todo's. Now it becomes more and more clear, it's important to make a pause. We all need pauses from time to time.
The main reason for my inconsistency was caused by aspiration to do everything and to be everywhere, to control as many things as I did before having kids. Sometimes you have to say "I don't longer give a fuck" and live.your.life. I'm not talking about escapism or hiding up from problems, I'm talking about health both physical and mental. You can't be everywhere and do everything and help everyone. You just can't and that's completely fine. Just do your thing and prioritize your tasks.
You can do anything, but you can't do everything!
My main 2019 resolutions would be to travel more and to write on my blog more frequently because I really enjoy these things and I can't say that I was good at them in 2018. *Hardly have I ever had so many drafts in my notes and unpublished posts in my feed*. Every time it came to writing something or planning a trip, a kind of voice in my head was telling me "oh-oh calm down, baby, I have some stuff for you to do at first".
Anyway, the end of the year is a complicated period when you think about lost possibilities (which are still possible), situations when you behaved like a fool or was an absolute shit towards other people (no offence, any smart unicorns out there), or any other sort of regrets. But now we are here. Blessed to witness one more year to come.
Happy New Year, everybody!