On the 12 of July I turned the ripe old age of 20. A step I hadn't thought of much until now. What had I achieved? As a child I can remember me and my brother discussing all the things we will have accomplished by the age of 20. Now that I´m actually here that list has been slightly altered. Since graduating from highschool in the summer of 2018 I have been on a mission. A mission of self-growth and acceptance. Whilst on that mission I have been living in a small flat in the center of Stockholm. But soon all that was to change…
Two days after my birthday I stepped on a plane and flew to England and after a four hour car journey I had reached the North of England. A place where the English side of my family resides. My mission, you may ask, was to become a Divemaster, in a total time of around six weeks. A mission that through hard work may actually be do-able. I ran, I studied, I worked and I went diving. Those were my days. Filled with new routines. Diving routines.
In my black journal I kept up with my thoughts throughout this process. Though shortly after arriving I realised that the way I used to process my thoughts was heading in the wrong direction. The future. I seemed to be writing journal entries that were summoning up the next day. A day in which I knew nothing of and yet I seemed to have written about it. The phrase "to live in the now" is commonly thrown about. A vague way of distinguishing between a person who chooses to ponder and a person who chooses to be in a state of apparent awareness. For me to live in the now was the difference between guessing my future without the use of a crystal ball and instead making use of the time that is the present. For there is no way that I can guess what the next day will hold. The now I can change though the future I simply cannot.
Being in the north of England put some perspective in my life. There are so many definitions for what happiness is and where it comes from. Whether it be a cup of tea, a great dive or a funny television program on rainy days. The important part is that we notice these moments. Before my time there these moment seemed to pass without my noticing them. These small moments that happen every second in our lives and just how special they are.
By the end of my six weeks I had a total of two dives left to complete in order to make Divemaster. It was decided that I was to finish them back in Sweden. I left the North and finished my trip in London, a city I once lived in but no longer know. A city I am in the process of getting to know.
Though my goal was to live in the now. As of right now I´m sat in an upright position in the sky. With golden tinted clouds passing below the windows. The sun painting the inside of the plane a glorious gold. One must simply learn to appreciate the small things. Now the fourth chapter of my life has just begun.