The past few days I have been going over two of the questions I got when I did my Q & A a few weeks ago being "What is my biggest fear?" and "Why don't you let people come close to you?". There are many things answering these two questions, however, the main answer is fear. I am so so scared of being fragile and to get my heart broken, again. Yes I know, everyone goes through heartbreak etc, but my stories are mine to read, mine to feel and mine to recover from. Most of them are untold for good reasons. Lately, I have come to a realisation that being too caught up with my past caused me to constantly keep my guard up in an attempt to keep myself safe, however, this commonly just end up in me pushing people away, People I truly care for, people I want to trust with all of my heart. I'm actually not sure what to do about this "problem" of mine. But what I do know is that it is holding me back. Thank God for amazing friends like Ratchel that keeps me sane haha. Especially with amazing food and coffee around haha! Who said eating vegan and GF food needs to be boing?!

What is your biggest "problem"?

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Soo I had three beautiful days last week! Never been so far inland in Australia before and despite the cold climate (haha), it was so so beautiful! Driving someone for 6 hours doesn't have to be as bad as it sounds! Super scary driving through the areas filled with kangaroos though, especially at night when they went crazy and loved jumping onto the road... I'm not over-exaggerating if I say I saw over 100 kangaroos along the road!

Really stepped out of my comfort zone doing this though... Pretty much threw myself over the cliff not knowing what to expect, what I was in for or how it would turn out. It may not sounds like a big deal for most people, but for me it truly is... I haven't been able to open up to a lot of people lately, actually for a while now... I've been too scared. Scared of being venerable again. But I guess you have to take that one step out of your comfort zone to actually get somewhere, to not be stuck in your bubble... right? The little step I took (really big for me), was luckily answered better imagined. So much warmth, welcoming and openness. It feels like as if I've been giving an open, helping hand, giving me the comfort I haven't felt in a very very long time.

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So, ones again I have been quiet for a hot minute... But I've finally finished this trimester of uni and are currently on a four-week break!! Sooo excited to actually think about something else other than. assessments and exams! Can you believe I one have one trimester left until I graduate?? Time flies!

Haven't made many plans for this holiday other than for once make sure to look after myself properly! And make sure to surround myself with people I love and that truly makes me happy. I actually decided to pack my bag and go six hours inland tomorrow, may or may not be a special someone there that I can't wait to see hehe. Can't wait to start doing things for myself that makes me happy and not just do it because I have to! Can't wait!

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