So as most of you know I have been going through big personal changes the past 6 months or so, and I have had to change a lot in my life, whether I wanted it or not. Since I got back to Australia I have had to step out of my comfort zone and it's not until now I am realising how much of an impact it has had on me. I am also not sure whether it's me moving on to being an independent adult or if I am just scared being outside my comfort zone haha. As you probably know I don't want to be an adult and would rather stay young forever and live my life according to peter pans law of a never-ending childhood in Neverland, please and thank you. So the past weeks I have moved house, I have moved in with a random girl (that showed up being an awesome woman and a great roomie!, thank God haha), I started a new job, came back to an old job at the same time and slowly realised I am all by myself. Don't give me wrong I still have amazing friends around me, but at the end of the day, it is me, myself and I. That is just a part of growing up right? Being "alone" but not lonely, I guess that's what I have to focus on. Another reason I want to focus on being alone at times but not lonely is the fact that I am so damn scared of being heartbroken, I am scared of putting a part of myself in other peoples hands where I get fragile and venerable. Don't really know where I am getting with this, I guess it is just my anxiety talking, however, I just wanted you to know that regardless of whether if this is me turning into a proper adult or just being fragile outside my comfort zone, I am processing. I think haha. Anyway, writing here always helps me a lot, and who knows it may help someone else too. I am now going to tuck myself and I into bed and sleep like a princess, night!