Since maybe a month back I've been really exhausted with too much on my plate. Ever since Nate arrived I've been trying to do be 100% available when it comes to work and 100% with Nate. As you've probably read we now have a nanny that is here with us during the days so I have time to do both.
Even though I get a lot of help with most things now I still feel really tired all the time and I don't feel too well most of the days. I'm struggling to find balance with everything and it feels like my heartbeat is constantly on level 100.
I've been trying to take it a bit slower and tried to rest some more but that's almost impossible right now since there's just too much going on and I'm not the person to cancel or be able to say no to things. I always want to do everything and be everywhere. My FOMO is real haha.
I don't know if it's because I'm fighting with my eating disorder, because I work a lot or because it's a big change to become a mom. But I'm getting more and more tired each day and it feels like I'm already doing everything to prevent it like hiring a nanny, getting enough sleep etc.
Maybe I need to realize that I'm not able to do everything like before. My body has changed, my schedule has changed, everything has changed. Right now I'm just taking one day at a time and trying to focus on the happy moments like Nate's precious smiles, the projects and events I have coming up that I love, my friends that make me laugh and my husband that is basically everything you can possible dream of. Other mommies, did you feel this way at some point and what did you do?!
I'm sending all my readers lots of love today. <3