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Molly Rosenström - Life of a 19-year-old wife, happy soul & eating disorder fighter from Finland. Mom to be in May. 👶
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Not just a face and a story

11/13/2018 6:03 PM LifeTravel

I'm back in Stockholm after a great (and hectic) vacation. It feels kind of depressing to get back home when it's pitch dark outside and you see zero people on the street. But the best part of getting back home was definitely to meet my doggo again, although he was a little moody since he didn't get to come on vacation with us.

The 11 hour flight to Stockholm felt like a week. I'm one of these people that simply can't sleep on the plane. So during the first hours I sit there trying to enjoy myself, eating snacks and just getting comfy. Then it always takes this weird turn when 90% of the plane has fallen asleep and I'm over tired but still can't sleep. The thing is that I laugh at everything when I'm too tired, so I sat there on the plane watching a semi good movie and just screamed of laughter while the rest of the plane was dead quiet.

A thing that has been very difficult this past week is that so many emotions I've avoided have kind of hit me now. Talking to the media, to friends and family about everything that has happened these past 6 years brings more and more painful memories to the surface. Some good ones as well though. My story has gotten so much reactions from every corner that it feels like I need to remind people that I'm just this human being going through that story you read about. I'm not just a face and a story. And I just realized that before all this, I haven't even stopped and reflected that much on what's really happened. I've been so caught up in my own roller-coaster that I haven't reflected on what's happened. Until now.

Now I'm pretty sure I'm gonna be asleep before 9PM because of jetlag. I'm excited to get back to my work routine tomorrow but at the same time I'd be so up to having one more day off, just laying in bed watching series. But that will have to wait until christmas or something!!

Ps. This is such a weird year. It's the first time I'm enjoying autumn and the first time I'm looking forward to christmas?! I'm so confused. Bye. <3 (Here's two last pictures from LA)

Downtown

11/10/2018 7:55 PM Travel

My favorite outfit forever is probably sneakers and a dress. I just don't like wearing pants and even less I like wearing heals. So this is the most comfy outfit combo of all times. I swear.

It kind of feels surreal to be in LA because it feels like a completely different city than when I was here working with music a year ago. Everything feels different this time! Also, last time I was here I lived in a very calm area where you had to have a car to get anywhere (literally anywhere, even the grocery store) and I stayed in a villa. This time we're staying at a hotel in the absolute center of downtown, so here it's just a minus to have a car. And you can see everything from Hollywood to downtown through our windows.

If you're on a family vacation and want to relax, go to the beach etc, I definitely recommend staying somewhere in the more calm areas (Santa Monica, Venice, Long Beach etc) but if you want to have action 24/7 and everything you need just around the corner I recommend downtown. The big minus about being located in the middle of downtown is that it's impossible to get anywhere. It takes forever. Yesterday I think we sat in an uber for about 4 hours and to walk that distance would have taken an hour. The traffic is constantly insane downtown, no matter in what direction you're heading. Last time I was in LA I thought the traffic was bad but now when I've seen what downtown traffic looks like it's on a whole other level.

Also a thing I've been thinking about a lot is these uber drivers. Now when I go everywhere with my husband it's fine but I don't think I'd ever put a foot in an uber if I was alone. Yesterday one uber driver told us a bunch of his drug stories and strippers that used to get naked in his car. Then he started pointing out every single strip club he could spot and joked in a nasty way the whole ride. I pretty much sat there thinking about wether I would tell him what a creep he was or just shut my ears. And trust me, the traffic jams had never felt as slow as that time.

Now I'm craving pizza so I think it's time for lunch. :) Big love!

No more counting calories

11/10/2018 4:58 PM Body PositivityTravel

Ok here’s a bunch of food pictures because I’VE GONE 3 MONTHS WITHOUT COUNTING CALORIES!! Wihuu.

People have sent me so many requests if I could do a ”what I eat in a day” post. The thing is that what I eat depends completely on where I am, who I’m with and what my schedule looks like. If I get to choose I usually eat most of my food during the day and only have some snack in the evening. So yesterday I had all of the food you see in the pictures within 4 hours haha... And then in the evening I only had some small snacks (vegan carrot cake and potatoes). I know, I have some weird food habits heh.

But the point is: I haven’t counted calories and I feel such relief and such freedom. I don’t have to plan my days according to how little or much I want to eat. I don’t panick if I have a meal too much. I don’t keep a diary where I write what I eat. 3 months isn’t that much but it feels like a year and it’s definitely the best months in my recovery and in forever over all.

I could literally spend hours just counting calories and planning what I was going to eat and what food I was going to avoid. I do not wanna go back there and neither will I. I spent 5 years counting calories, 5 years!! Imagine the amount of hours I’ve spent on that. When I got home from the eating disorder clinic the first time I got ill I ate well and I gained a healthy relationship to food, but I still couldn’t stop counting calories. So that habit has been on non stop even in between my relapses.

Yesterday we went to Hollywood, Body Energy Club is my favorite place and I had to go there and had my peanut butter chocolate protein smoothie - I recommend this place so so much! Then we had lunch at Veggie Grill (a chain with 100% vegan food, they have everything from bowls to burgers) and in the evening we went to Anaheim with some friends to watch a hockey game. Now we just woke up and are about to go on a breakfast adventure. I do not wanna go home after the weekend, I had forgot what a nice city LA is...