please excuse me for the less of update,
but I do my best to do as many things as possible now that I'm home.
however, right now I feel no motivation, I feel so disappointed and annoyed.
I'm sad that people can not take care of each other, help each other. we are so undescribable bad to show appreciation and be there for other people. we are bad to bother.
I'm a person who'll do everything so my loved ones will feel good and be happy. when they need me, I'm just drop everything else, because that moment that person is the most important in the universe.
but I'm tired. I'm not tired of be there for people, I'm tired of the feeling that I'm alone. I'm tired of other people expecting and take things for granted. I'm tired of the principle that "there is another person, so I'm not needed." ignorance. I'm tired tired tired.
please, help me. what do you do when you're tired of humanity?