More often than I want to admit I sit and scroll down other peoples blogs and think to myself ''Wow their life really must be amazing''. Even though it might say that they are fighting a cold and aren't feeling well at the moment I'm like ''Yep I'd like that life''. Sometimes I just can't help but wondering, what are you all doing to be able to make a normal Sunday seem so perfect? How do you all manage to go out so much and how on earth do you manage to make your blog look so stunning all the time?
Then I scroll down my own blog and I'm like ''What are you talking about, people are probably wondering how you are able to go out so much and how you can make life look so great''. If I really think about it, without my own feelings attached, being an actress/songwriter living in LA probably seems to be a pretty good life, and I totally go out and do a lot of fun things on top of that. Only I don't feel that way.
It's funny how great something can look on paper, on a blog, and then in real life it's a whole other thing. While you see pictures of delicious food I feel the guilt of once again spending money I don't really have. While you see pictures of a warm sunny day in California I'm constantly feeling like I'm living on borrowed time. Like this life doesn't completely belong to me. You don't know all of this, how could you? They say a picture can sometimes tell you all the things you need to know about a situation, but sometimes a pictures doesn't tell you anything. Or sometimes a pictures tells you everything but what's actually going on.
This was just something I wanted to bring up since I've promised myself to keep this blog as honest as possible, and while having fun and eating out is a big part of my life there's much more to it. My life is just like yours, very much imperfect. Filled with problems I sometimes have no idea how to solve and get through. Doesn't it feel kind of good to know that this is how all our lives are? Though I know it can be very hard to believe sometimes when you scroll down someones Instagram feed. I never want it to seem like I'm living the ultimate perfect life because there's no such thing. It's important to me that people know that since I am a person who is constantly putting content out there. I don't ever want anyone to look at my blog and think my life is better than theirs.
That's all I have to say for tonight. Thank you so much to everyone who really takes the time to read this blog or who are even just checking in. It means the world to me! <3