Hello September! 🍂
You've been heavily missed.

I figured I would sit down and give some reflections of my life as of currently.
A lot has happened and not only do I need to vent but I'm aware many have wondered what's been going on with me lately.

• I changed my name •
Yes, it finally happened!
I'm now officially Mrs Foose after a 6 year long battle with my husband of what family name we should have.
I won!
I sent in the papers to the Swedish National Registration, thinking "this will probably be taking 8-12 weeks..."
But I recieved my approval the very next day haha.

• I will be going back to work •
May sound odd, but true.
I'm going back to my old job within childcare in pre-school/kindergarten now after home caring for a family for 1 years time.
It's progressing to the point I'm not enough and they need more help than I can give.
Such is life, but it's for the very best in the situation.

• I need to heal more •
My own health is declining, to a scary point where my body is shutting down due to stress.
Over the time this upcoming months I'll be focusing on healing and helping myself back to decent health again.

This includes:
▪ Remove toxic influences from my life, whatever this may include. If I don't get a positive change it will eat me up inside out.

▪ Exercise and move more, cus my lower back and muscles are badly damaged and need the repair.

▪ Declutter my home, too much will make one drown emotionally and physically. Especially in a small already cramped space.

▪ See more people, over this year I've lost touch with a lot of people and missed out a lot of opportunities. So this year ahead I'm changing that.

▪ Take a leap of faith and take chances, I've held back a lot and I don't want to anymore.

• Moving •
We have often spoken about the desire of moving away from where we live currently, but now we are certain it's definitely going to happen but not anytime soon however.
Still working on the final details.

WHAT IS NEW IN YOUR LIFE?

An open letter to my body.

I'm scared to figure you out.
I know I've mistreated you for several years, so we have a rocky relationship history you and I. But these past 3 years I've tried my very best to get to know you again.
You're always there for me even when we had a rough start with hospital visits, medications and lots of trials - and even yet I know that I should have treated you better than that, I just haven't been a very good friend to you.

But here is my promise:
I will try and get to know you, the first step have already been taken when I cut your stomach smaller with the WLS (weight loss surgery) which left 5 light scars on your belly.
You deflated us to a saggy skinnier version full of battle scars in forms of stretch marks... our so called "life marks".
Yet I took a step further and starved you out of fear, fear of going back to the past.
My promise will be to make kinder choices for the both of us.

I will dress you nicer.
I will try feeding you better.
I will photograph you.
I will touch you and accept what's new.
I will do my best to try to love you.

I was recently mentioned in @Missjennifer's blog about which bloggers and influencers she's had the great pleasure to meet and get to know, and how thankful she was over how her blog had given her the great chance to meet awesome people.

Which made me think: "what am I really thankful for about my blog?"
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• I've gotten to know amazing strong people, who I now call friends.
Just to mention a few great people:
@missjennifer, @rockdoll, @Resanmotlivet, @Livsviktigt, @beckalindhe, @sofiawerlin, @shinelikeapearl, @Readthis,
@natalieelisabeth, @marielinneaa, @MyGastricXjourney, @msoderholtz, @tessbjork and of course many more.

• I've developed as a multitasker and creator - striving to better myself and to challenge my creativity and talents

• I've been given the availability to make money off my blog, my plan isn't to have it as my only income.
But it's so cool to know that it's something I can do that will give me a few extra bucks in the future. Something that wasn't a possibility when I started blogging about my art in 2012.

I'm beyond grateful that this has made me grow in so many various ways as a person.