May or may not have done a small "photo shoot" today.
Don't know what to call it so here's my "I-found-my-vintage-nightgown-in-my-bottom-drawer" shoot 👌🏼😅

It's okej.
It's okej not to be okej all the time.
It's even okej to feel bad about yourself, even though you're trying to feel better.

You try to do whatever it takes to feel good again.
A new style.
A new hobby.
New haircut.
A new experience.
But no matter what it may be, make YOURSELF happy. It's important too.

Whenever I feel bad about myself, I force myself into a situation I don't wanna be in - because then I will challenge myself to accept what is.
I have to accept the situation.
Ex. When I feel bad about myself for a time, I force myself to wear nice clothes. I force myself into those sexy underwear, wear that thong or skinny dress/tight pants/etc... because then after a while (half a day or so) I feel a little bit better.

If you have body problems, self-esteem issues or in general have a hard time accepting yourself, remember it's okej to wash your laundry or do the dishes in high heels, vacuum in a dress, water your plants in cosplay, or go naked around the house.
Or perhaps do a spa-day: paint your face, take a shower/bath, hair treatment, foot bath, mani/pedi...

You're allowing yourself self-help treatment in a safe environment with items/clothing that make you happy and feel good.
And why shouldn't you look your best and feel good on your lower days?
You're awesome even then!

So tell me in the comments: what's your favorite thing to do when you feel down?

📷 | @ladyinaafoose

Robe from New Yorker.

White laced bra from KappAhl.

White laced bottoms from KappAhl.

As of lately I'm feeling better in my own skin.
Summer have been better than expected and my focus from healing from my WLS eating disorder has taken me further than I was 6 months ago.

I am happy that I made that call and asked for help.
Even though I some days just wanna sit and sulk in solitude and continue this self harm alone.
But I will admit, how weird it sounds that I started confusing not eating and eating less to losing weight, when I myself do know better than that.
That regular healthier meals, in a decent portion will have a better effect than starvation.
So I am thankful to myself for opening up In therapy, breaking down some days, fall back into old habits and then raise from the ashes.
Now I've gone from eating 0,5 dl (1/4 cups) to eating up to max 2 dl (almost a cup) of food every 2-3 hours. Even though I should be eating between 6-8 meals a day, I am still struggling to go past 4-5 meals a day - so I am still undereating.
This also effects my Reactive Hypoglycemia that I recieved post-op, so the only thing that helps is eating little but often, slow carbs, less fast sugars and lots of fiber and protein filled meals.

My favorite quote that I've hung up in my home is:
Falling down is an accident.
Staying down is a choice.

And I think those two sentences have saved me from a lot lately.

Last month I decided it was a good time as any to start wearing more dresses, more comfort, more happy things.
To bring out the person I've been trying to suppress deep inside.
So the results have been amazing.
And I think it also shows in my Instafeed.

The dress I am wearing is a DIVIDED by H&M black floral dress with slitz on both sides.
A birthday gift from my brother from back in June.
Because let's face it - flowers never goes out of style 🌻