Hi beautiful people 🌼

I thought it might be a good idea to write about my sister that has autism and ADHD.
Because you always see things about their parents about how difficult it is to raise a kid that has autism, but you almost never see anything about their siblings...
because it is also hard for the sibling well not really hard but it is hard to understand how they think and feel so I thought I could write about that here :).

When I was younger, I went to a "sibling day" for siblings that have a sister or brother with a personality disease. That is a group where you can talk about it and they would answer your questions, But I was really young, so I don't remember much of it but my mum told me this. I didn't talk much either since I was like 3 years old :).

Her brain works in a way my brain will never work. But she doesn't fit in this "society's norm" And she often goes unappreciated.
I grow up in a unique way, I grow up with a sister whose needs are always more important than mine.
I said before that my sister is 18 but on the inside she is much younger, You will probably not notice it at the first sight, but if you get to know her you will notice in the way she acts that she is younger.
For example yesterday me and my mum looked up some songs we used to listen when we were younger just for fun, But my sister got so happy and she started singing and dancing to the songs.

Acaptence always take longer than they should. Strange looks when she got happy or acted out a little. My friends laughing about her because she was still watching kid cartoons at the age of 17.

To be the sister of a child with autism means every day is crazy and you never know what to expect. It’s stressful. It’s chaotic. You deal with a lot of emotions and anxieties that never cross the minds of other 8-years-olds. Why are those kids staring at my sister? What are they saying? Please stop flapping your arms. You hate your sibling, you love your sibling. It is overwhelming at first and that’s okay.

I've always felt like the older Sibling or the "Responsible one" but it's ok because my sister can also do things by herself for example she went on the airplane ALONE! I was so proud of her that she did that.

I don't think will ever understand how her brain works and I will never understand how she feels or thinks but, as long as we respect her it's okay because they are also humans just like us and that counts for everyone!

I just want to everyone who know somebody that is autistic that it is okay if you are mad or annoyed at them, but just know to never show it, and NEVER laugh about them because they are just like us.

Thank you so much for taking your time to read this. I never thought I would write about this πŸ’• lyall xoxo.



Hiii beautiful people! 💛
My day has been pretty good and I thought that I could write about it! 💛

Okay, so I woke up at 10:13 even though I always set my alarm at 9:30 I just can't wake up!!! And it is so bad because school is starting on Monday. And I have no idea how I'm going fix to wake up at 6:30 if I can't even wake up at 9:30!
Well anyways I woke up and I made some coffee and I watched some YouTube and boring stuff. I never eat breakfast, I usually feel a bit ill in the morning so I never eat in the morning.
After I ate my breakfast, I dressed myself and washed my face. I try to wash my face really good cause I'm breaking out really bad :( of course at this point of the year cause I usually don't have any spots or pimples, but of course my face thinks that's it's a good time to break out when freaking school is staring in a couple of days!!

I usually pick up my mother from her work (just because I need to stay fit and it's healthy to walk) but then she called me and said that she finished early so I could meet her at the grocery store . We bought some chocolate (geisha omg love it) and a box with liquorice for my stepfather because he is going to Stockholm for his work.
After we came home I watched some Netflix (of course) and I ate my chocolate.
I also looked at my school website and since I was going to get a new mentor this year I just wanted to check if they already said who our mentor is going to be but I didn't say anything and that kinda made me sad :(. I just wanted  to know who it was going to be since everything is changing and it's just so confusing. But when my stepfather came home, he had a letter in his hand and he gave it to my mum and it was a letter from school and it said who my mentor is going to be and it made me so
happy :).

My stepfather always goes the gym every day so me and my mum made dinner we made spaghetti and a salad. But we needed to be faster because we needed  to take the bus because my sister was going to get her first tattoo! Me, my sister, my mum and my sisters friend went with the bus to a friend from my mum who has a tattoo shop.
he was so kind and nice and I was so excited about it! She was thinking about getting a bunny on her ankle or an infinity symbol on her wrist. And the nice man said that she could get both and she only needed to pay for one! So she got 2 tattoos in one day! :)

When we went home again my stepfather picked us up wich was really nice of him ♡.

When we came home, I had a migraine so I ate my dinner and went to bed where I'm still laying 💛🐥
But I brushed my teeth and I washed my face, of course :)
Well, I'm actually really tired so I'm going to sleep very soon. 😘😘
Thank you all for reading my story!
Ly all xoxo



you guys don't know me yet so I thought it was a good idea to write some facts down so you can get to know me! 🌼

1. I'm born in the netherlands. πŸ‘Ά

2. I moved to Sweden when I was 11.

3. I'm 14 years old. 🌼

4. I have 1 sister and 2 stepbrothers. πŸ’—

5. I prefer not talking about my feelings. πŸƒ

6. I always try to stay positive no matter what. βœŒπŸ’•

7. This year (2017) has been a really difficult year for me. πŸƒ

8. I am raised both English and Dutch. 🌹

9. I have 2 best friends and I love them from the bottom of my heart ❀

10. people usually never notice when I'm sad.

11. I smile a lot :)
12. I listen to music really often! ( I listen to it right now) πŸ˜‚

13. I try to not talk behind people's back.

14. My mum is from India ( she is adopted so she feels dutch)

15. I have dutch, Indian and American blood.

16. talking about blood πŸ‘†my blood pressure is to low. πŸ˜‚

17. I'm going to start 8th grade in a week. 😒

18. I call my mother mum and I've never called her mamma.

19. I call my grandma Granna or Gramma.

20. Me and my "granna" are really close ❀

21. I can't talk about " suicide",death or suΓ―cidal thoughts because it makes me really sad and it makes me want to cry I don't really know why.

22. When I was younger I always listened to English music and movies and never to dutch.

23. I refused to talk English when I was younger I started to really talk English when I was about 6 years old πŸ˜‚

24. I'm afraid of losing people.

25. My highest grade is an A and my lowest is an D.

26. I love to write πŸƒπŸ’•

27. I am pretty short I am 1.54 πŸ˜‚

28. I'm a vegetarian 🌿 🐷

29. I am a vegetarian because I don't like the fact that meat has been alive and It is actually really bad for the environment tooπŸ˜‚.

30. I used to be a huge fan of Jessie j.

31. I am not a fan from anybody but I really like ruth b and halsey a lot!

32. Right now I'm listening to highest grace

33. I used to dance a lot!

34. I love to sing 🎀.

35. I'm a over thinker πŸ’›.

36. My favorite colour is yellow πŸ’› πŸ’› πŸ’›

37. I'm a picky eater.

38. The only things I really like to eat are noodles and salads.

39. πŸ‘†πŸ‘†πŸ‘† that's one of the main reasons why my blood pressure is too low.

40. I'm better at speaking English than Dutch but I'm better at writing dutch than English but I prefer to write English idk why πŸ˜‚

41. I have a lot if migraines.

42. I have at least twice a week a really bad headache :(

43. I think swedish,English and dutch and it's really confusing sometimes.

44. I miss people really fast even though they are in the same room as meπŸ˜‚.

45. Always when I see movies or listen to songs I pick out things that they said in the movie or song and I make random quotes out of it.

46. I'm allergic to perfume on my skin.

47. It always make me happy to see people smile :).

48. I wish that everyone could be happy and just smile and it may sound a bit cheesy but it makes me sad to see other people sad.

49. My favorite all time quote is " when life gets you know you know what you gotta do? just keep swimming just keep swimming just swimming swimming ming swimming πŸ’—

50. My favorite shows on netflix are: Gilmore girls, American horror story, gypsy, orange is the new black and stranger things ❀.

Thank you so much for reading all these facts about me lyall xoxo