This was the most emotional day so far, it finally came. The day we had to say goodbye. I had dreaded this day, almost the minute since I got passed the boarders I dreaded this day. I didn't want this day to come, I didn't want to leave. Because for the first time in a very, very long time, I was home.
For the first time in forever I felt I belonged somewhere. And that somewhere was with Cody.
Almost a whole month had I spent with him, and not once did I let us take time to think about my return to Sweden. Because I didn't want us to think about that, I wanted us to enjoy every second of the time we had together. That's why we did things, almost every single day. Even the days he was working, we always did something when he was off work.
The night before had been emotional, for the both of us. We couldn't sleep. Cody was starting to feel all the emotions coming his way. I hated seeing him like this. Me, I showed no feelings at all. But on the inside, I was a total mess.
April 17th to May 14th. I wished I could had stayed at least two more days. Because on the 15th would be his 27th birthday. And i really would had loved to spent that day with him. He spent my birthday with me, why couldn't I had spent his birthday with him?
"The perfect gift" he had said.
My flight would leave at 6 PM. It was with a heavy sigh I got up and started packing my things. We did a few last things before we headed to the airport. We took our time to snuggle, we spent the last time together in silence. Just taking in the fact that this was the bestest decision of our lives. 4 years of knowing each other, yes we have had our ups and downs. At one point we broke up, but found back to each other. Our love has never been this strong, and I can feel that from here it will only get stronger!
At the airport we got some special treatment, a nice worker gave me a priority ticket, meaning we could sit together for a longer time and just snuggle before I had to go through security. So we sat there. Hugging. Cuddling. Once again the emotional feelings got to us. We both shed a tear.
We said our goodbyes. It was heartbreaking. But:
Goodbyes is not forever
Goodbyes is not the end
It simply means I'll miss you
Until we meet again. ❤