So, a while ago, when I turned 20 actually, I got my first tattoo. I had been thinking about getting a tattoo for a long time already and had a clear vision of what I wanted. A black rose.
I also wanted to share the meaning behind my tattoo with you guys. I do not feel like people need a meaning for a tattoo but for me it was important.
The flower, the rose, comes from the fact that even a pretty flower has to start growing from mud and grow through dirt to get beautiful and majestic. And that is basically what my teenage has been all about. Battling my anorexia, self-harm and depression has been the hardest things in my life so far. Its been a shitty period of my life but something beautiful came out of it and I've grown stronger, wiser and am still growing and getting stronger every day. The thorns of the rose symbolize the isolation and the way I pushed people away for being afraid of hurting them.
The placing, on my left arm, is on top of old self-harm scars. A reminder that I was stronger than my demons and that I will never hurt myself again.
Secondly, why I wanted the rose black was simply because it symbolizes the dark period of my life and the quote "even a white rose has a black shadow" which in my opinion is perfectly describing mental illnesses overall. People who look happy can in fact be hiding so much pain inside.