There have been many highs and many lows in my life in 2017, like most of us experience, it's what we do in the low moments that make a difference and define who we are. I always try to be optimistic in life and fight against all the negativity and toxicity, there's too much hate in the world, I'm amazed that I'm not grumpy 24/7, but I try to challenge life with a smile.
The past year I grew more apart from my family, distance does that, even in this day and age. I find myself no longer Skyping with my parents, we just talk on the phone since November (Dad's computer stopped working, or maybe it didn't, who knows). My mother is in critical condition. From a tumour growth inhabiting the whole length of her large intestine back in 2016, to colon cancer, early 2017, chemotherapy which stopped 6 months before Christmas, and now she's back to the hospital in critical condition. My mum was doing quite well, thanks to a Ketogenic diet, once she stopped chemo, the grains started creeping in and her condition deteriorated quickly. Well, the battle is coming to an end. Cancer has won, it's back now and there is nothing they can do. I'm not going get upset or angry, it's part of the cycle of life. From bits and pieces of information given to me, they are mostly unclear and unwilling to be given, is that my mother is losing the battle against cancer. All the wealth of knowledge I have acquired, useless in the face of the reality at hand, it's too late... much too late.
The hardest part is not the cancer itself , but the lack of happiness, that my mother showed most of her life. Not even in the face of death, can she look back and see how fortunate she was in life.
What I'm trying to say is that we should never give up on life. We can't be selfish to our loved ones, no matter how hard it may be. If life throws you lemons, why be boring and make lemonade? Ask yourself if there is nothing better you can come up with that won't be sour to others? Enjoy life, accept it's challenges and smile for a better tomorrow. Plant a happy seed, watch it grow. Life is too precious to waste on negative thoughts or anger.