I need to get up, be tougher, feel less, think less, worry less. I need to stop wearing my heart on my sleeve.

I need to put a "mask" on my face..a "happy mask". I need to look myself in the mirror and say: I'm ok, I'm tough, I'm happy, I can do it...

I need to put the past behind me...it feels like I had hit the rock bottom this week, I hope so anyway. 😢😢

I need to accept that I'm not perfect, I have scars from my past, I need to deal with it, accept my mistakes...and do much better in the future.

I need to put some more skin on my nose...
I need to find someone who loves me even though my past is a mess.

A person said to me: Vivi you need to be tough minded but tenderhearted!

I will try to be like that...😳😳

But right now I just want to stay in my bed and wish that someone could hug me... I wish I had someone who could let me cry and wipe my tears away and kiss me...but no..I'm alone..

Deal with it...accept it...😢😢😢

​​Love Vivi

Finally Friday and I start the weekend with a free Friday.  Yeay ... happy happy!!! 😀😀

The sun is shining outside so it's a good day to take away the weeds on the patio on the front side. But now I need to take a break .... coffee and a shake in the sun before it's time to continue!

#freeweekend #happyfriday #weeds #coffeewithmilk #chocolateshake #redheadedqueen #healthqueen #nouw #healthmotivator #momtoteens

​​Love Vivi

We have all of us felt betrayed by someone we thought could trust.

Perhaps you tell someone something in confidence and find out that the person you told have betrayed you.
First you feel shocked, angry and sad... then you feel just the betrayed and empty.
After that comes the nasty feeling of betrayal...how can i trust this person again, is it possible to repair?

Will I be able to trust someone in the future or will I always be suspicious? Thoughts and questions spin around in my head...gosh

Could I do something different? When such a thing happens, you have a tendency to judge yourself very hard.

I know exactly how this feels. You just want to sleep until everything is ok. You get paralyzed, you lose your appetite.

Have now only been living on orange juice for several days, I lost my appetite overall. Can't even drink coffee anymore.

Know that there are people who live nearby who spy on me for others, there are people at work who have there eyes on me, spreading rumors about me and talking behind my back.

People try to break me down, they want me to feel bad, they don't want me to be happy ...

I wonder how these people can live with themselves? How can one consider themselves entitled to destroy another person's life?

There are many very sick people out there ... I will never stop being surprised by all the idiots.

But I know that I will fix this, I'm strong, but not right now..later...I promise you all...and soon I will be very happy.

​​Love Vivi