So apparently my fall depression came early this year. I really don’t know why. Sure the significant weather changes have played in, and the fact that all my friends are out of town, but I also think it’s something else. This year, just like last year, is made of melancholy and disappointments. I think I need something new. A refreshment. Until now I have tried buying half a bookstore and getting high on M&M’s, but it didn’t work. I still stay in bed, days and nights. Searching on Netflix, searching on google, searching my entire room and all weird group chats I’m in. But everything got like some kind of grey aura surrounding, and it’s getting onto me as well. I’m desperate, trying to wake up from something that isn’t even a nightmare. Just a state of unfinished actions and thoughts.
So now I’m here. Going back to my old blog I created a year ago and never used. I don’t know what I’m looking for. But if I don’t find it I’ll maybe quit. Not committing suicide of course, you don’t have to worry about my life. Just my existence.
Please help me.
/I am a girl, and that’s the only thing you need to know about me. Actually, you wouldn’t even need to know that, but stupid me had it in the blog’s name and I don’t know settings very well. Meh. Who cares?