This is a pretty exclusive post. Maybe one of the first times I have logged into this account and not being overwhelming by negativity. How sad. Well, perhaps the fact that I’m a teenager with hormones and shit is a good explanation. I swear I usually tend to not complain that much. But do not ask my friends about it, because they are a bit cranky when it comes to that.
Anyways, the thing I decided to share today in my public diary is my calm. Today is a Friday, but since I have a cold I aren’t out with my friends or anything. I’m at home, watching cute movies at Netflix that you like and that brings you a special feeling, but you then forget about the next day. They aren’t life changing for a very long time, you know, even though they still are good. This one managed to improve my mood from worthless worthlessy worthless little shit to something really peaceful. I am happy this night even though I am a forever single unlike all the gorgeous stars in the movie. To be fair, relationships aren’t that good unless they’re really working out, and in real life there are a lot of things that don’t work out.
Have you watched The Amazing World of Gumball? It was a show on Cartoon Nerwork, I think it’s still rolling. Not that I watch it anymore, unless I’m sick because that is my nostalgic time and with fever and colds you are allowed to snuck up in your bed with tons of blankets and stuffed animals that you vaguely remember the name of and watch old childhood shows. The thing with that show that never really got out of my mind was an episode when Gumball (a blue cat with an enormous head) and Darwin (a fish with legs who only wear shoes) discovers a classmate is missing and by accident enters another dimension or something where all the universe mistakes are held, including their classmate. (No, it’s not 100% realistic, but still the worst thing must be the name. Who names their kid freaking Gumball??)
A place where all the universe mistakes are held. It’s just a show for kindergartens, but I always thought that was especially beautiful. I must be made for some kind of poetry. It’s so much thinking around that. I always wondered who decides if it’s a mistake. For those who believe in destiny (I don’t, but I love to think about it) shouldn’t everything have been made for a reason? And for other people, doesn’t everything looks like a mistake to at least somebody. Everyone have different opinions.
But if we skip the part of the rules for that place, if one thing, shouldn’t humans be in there? We constantly make the planet suffer. Or maybe the entire real world are there, because the real world isn’t perfect in almost any way. Love isn’t as strong as in movies. Friends aren’t that ultimate groups that meet all the time and always help each other. Breakups aren’t vulnerable and sweet like in movies. First kisses usually are awkward, but in the movies everything is perfect. The list goes on and on, but I think you see my point. Maybe the real world, AFK, is the place for all mistakes. There are too many mistakes here, too much things that are just meh, to not consider the possibility. And by that I don’t actually think that we are trapped in a world in a television show, I mean entirely metaphorical.
Ok, seriously though?? I tell you about how I am calm and happy the ways thing are, and suddenly I am in the middle of explaining to you that the universe are a big mistake? What’s wrong with me? Can I still not see the beauty in things? I really need help...
Bye for today.