I've been thinking for hours on end about small, but at the same time gigantic thoughts. What is life? What does it mean? Where does it lead us? What is the point of it? I usually start asking myself these questions after i have hit a milestone, or just when i'm laying in my room at night trying to sleep. Some of you might relate to this, that if we find something overwhelming we just tend to suppress it and leave it be. That's what I've been doing when these thoughts crossed my mind. I just suppress, suppress and suppress. I don't want to suppress anymore... i'm not going to accept that these questions are to deep for me to swim around in.
What is life? Such a easy question to ask but the more you think about the answer to it, the harder it gets. Life has such a strong meaning to it, in the short version it's a word for the existence of people and animals... People came up with this word, a word that leads to questions that are still unsolved. Some believe that some form of god gave us life, that we are made from a higher power.While some believe that at some point billions and billions of years ago chemistry (how atoms interact and make organisms) made the first reproducing creatures. That the origin of life somehow started by atoms interacting to form molecules, that started to interact to form things and "life". We know that everything is made out of molecules, so that's a interesting theory... but it unfortunately only leads to more questions. If this is the case then why did the atoms start to form things, why interact with other atoms, why then and where does the atoms come from? I'm not going to come up with my own theory, It's just that i find it unsettling not to have an answer, to such a innocent and fairly simple question to ask. The only thing i'm trying to say is that i really can't grasp on it, i mean no one 100% has so far. Even people that believe in a god does not really know outside of our knowledge, that's what believing means... to not 100% know but to think it's a certain way, to have faith.
But okey, we don't know how life started so... how do we know it isn't something bigger to it than what we think it means? Also what is the point of life, what are we supposed to do?
I see a cycle, we tend to put up these milestones... almost like small steps that give our life a meaning, we try and come up with reasons to keep on going kinda. An example so that you understand what i'm saying, lets say you're a kid. A kid who just feel like everything is so unfair, the adults get to make MY choices and i have to go to school... you usually say that you can't wait until you're older so you can do whatever you want!Then when you're finally grown up you find a new thing to focus on, maybe that dream job or that perfect apartment with a breathtaking view or maybe you just simply want to find that perfect person to settle down with. And after that? Kids, promotion, moving to a fancy house, traveling all over the world or get that "gym" body you're fantasizing about having. I believe the goals, the things we want are the thing that gives our life meaning. Without any goals or wants what's left? You may say there are people who lie in the "present" who do not think about the future. But they do to an extent. For example if i decide to live in the present from here on out then that itself is a goal... right?
Life is a word that can be viewed in so many different ways and that can be discussed for days on end without leading to somewhere. I don't know when or if we will ever be able to answer all of the questions about life, although i think it should be discussed. It shouldn't be this overwhelming thought that we can't talk about because we suppress it. Life is us, it's everything so why don't take some time to discuss what this everything means to you? How do you view it and how does others view it? There's only one way to find out and that is by thinking and discussing with someone about it. It is your life so i can't force you, but what does that really mean... what does your life mean to you?