Hi everyone and happy Sunday!
Today has been a weird day, that’s how I can describe it. I woke up at like 12 pm which is okay since it’s Sunday. But immediately when I woke up I felt strange and anxious for some reason. I’m at my boyfriends place and like most of the time, I wake up before him. I got up and took my morning medicine, like always. I hoped it would help with the anxious feeling I had, and for a moment it did, while I was watching one of my favorite YouTubers. I felt fine. But then slowly the anxiety came back. I tried to push it away, but it stayed. I decided to take a hot shower and I actually cried for a bit in the shower, just because I felt very overwhelmed and anxious. After the shower I went to lay in bed next to babe who was still, after hours of me being awake, asleep. Or he was half asleep. But the anxious feeling became better when I got to be next to him. In the end I decided to take an extra medicine for my anxiety which the doctor told me to take whenever I need it, which was the case today. Right now, writing this, I’m fine. Babe is playing on his computer and I’m writing this. I’m on my third cup of coffee today and I know that it might be a reason for my anxiety as well, but I’m not sure, since I felt anxious before I had my coffee. And I don’t want to blame coffee.
So, that’s how my Sunday is going. Not the best day of my life but I’m getting through it. I think one reason for my anxiety is how much I think about my past. And I am trying my hardest to let go of my past. I’m actually reading a really good book which is called “The Power of Letting Go” by John Purkiss. I’ve read like 70 pages and it’s really good. I can already tell that it’s one of my new favorite books. And already 70 pages in, I’ve already found it inspiring and helpful. I'm excited to continue reading it. One other reason for my anxiety is that I’m going through a lot at the moment. Lots of stress and overwhelm, but not negative. Just big changes coming up which excite and scare me a bit. But I’m not going to go into detail online, you’ll find out when I’m ready to open up.
But to end this post on a more positive note, today I will continue watching YouTube videos that make me feel inspired. I will read more today and make this day end with a positive mindset. Next week is filled with fun plans! Tomorrow, which is Monday, will be another chill day without plans so far. On Tuesday I have an important meeting which I won’t tell you about. On Wednesday after my therapy session, I’m going for a coffee with my old best friend from my old school. I’m so excited! On Thursday I’m going to go get lunch with my big brother which I really look forward to. And of course I’ll spend time at my boyfriend's place also. I’m so excited for next week and I will make sure I will live in the moment and make the most of it. It’s going to be amazing.
Anyway, I hope you all have a great day and hope next week will be amazing for you as well!