Dealing with stress and anxiety.

These past couple of weeks I have been dealing with a lot of stress. The biggest thing that has caused me a lot of stress is the decisions on what I want to do with my future school wise. And the pressure I get from dad wanting me to become a nurse is making me feel, not just stressed, but kind of sad also. I feel in my heart that becoming a nurse or anything like that, is not my path to take. At least not at this point in my life. I want to please people in my life, especially dad, but I also remember to keep in mind that it’s my future and my choice on what I want to do. But then again, what the fuck do I want to do? I have one week to figure this out because in exactly one week we make applications for schools. I try to not overthink or stress too much, and I remember to keep a positive mind. I know I will figure this out. But I have to do it quickly. We will see what I end up choosing.

But honestly, I think that I have never stressed this much about anything before. Which I mean is understandable because these are big things to think about. I have had stomach ache and headaches and mental breakdowns a lot because of this. I literally sleep to escape this stress. I had to take a break from writing this because I started crying. But I’m now okay and I have calmed down. What I also feel is that I have kind of lost a sense of spark that I have. By this I mean I haven't experienced a lot of joy lately. Of course I am happy to be with my boyfriend everyday and we have exciting things happening, which bring me joy. But I mean I feel kind of numb? But I’m just reminding myself that when I have made the applications for school, I will feel so relieved. This exciting thing that will happen in a couple weeks will bring me so much joy. I won’t tell you about it yet, but all I can say is that no, I’m not pregnant, haha!

After uploading this blog post I’m going to take a hot shower and wash off the stress, watch my favorite YouTubers or maybe a movie, drink water or maybe make a cup of tea, relax and journal down my thoughts and affirmations.


I hope you all are doing well, I am okay. I’m sending you all hugs.

Talk to you soon, xx.


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Aaron
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Remember that you can always change your mind if it doesn't work out. People change careers and majors in college everyday, so relax and just do whatever feels right to you at this time. Have a good weekend (not-pregnant) Tessa, haha <3 hug and kiss