I just woke up but i’m still tired.
Feels like I haven't slept at all. It’s 07:04 in the morning and I have to get ready for the first day of school in our new town Black Hollow. But why couldn’t I sleep?
Maybe i’m anxious? maybe im scared people won’t like me?
No, that’s not it.
I have been feeling down lately. All these thoughts spinning in my head making me feel crazy. Wish I could stop thinking for a week or two. Is this what depression is? I have a good life don’t I? My health is on point, my brain is functioning properly, even more than it should. I should be happy, I can’t go to school looking like that one kid that people are scared to approach.
From what i’ve seen this town is very small. Everybody kinda knows everybody. We moved here because my mum got a new job offer with a higher pay. If it was up to me i’d never leave our old town.
“Damien!, you’re going to be late for school!” The voice drifted from below
What happened to the time!? First day of school and i’m going to be late, talk about good impression.
Damien took his comb brushing through his hair. Then he grabbed his sweatpants and his hoodie and went downstairs.
“Mum i’m leaving” Damien shouted
“Aren’t you gonna eat something before you go?”
“No time! I’m already late” He said before slamming the door behind him.
He was jogging his way to school looking around as he runs. This is the first time he has actually been out since they moved in which was 2 months ago. A lot of trees he thought, not like his old town which was covered with buildings and not a tree in sight.
Damien slowed down having sweat pouring down his forehead, He rather be late than going into class all sweaty he thought. Having a grey sweatsuit was probably not the best choice, all his sweat stains was showing. He slowed down trying to catch his breath and air drying the stains.
8.13. 13 minutes late on my first day of school and I look like a mess Damien thought. These kids probably know each other from before and here comes the new kid with sweat stains and 13 minutes late trying to fit in this small town.
A bad start.
Damien stood still looking at the school building, this is something from the harry potter books he thought. The building was old and shaped like a castle, that’s because it was a castle before getting renovated into a school. It even had dorms for the older kids to live in.
He went inside checking his clothes, the stains was almost all dried up. Taking a few deep breaths he started looking for his classroom.
Why is my heart beating? Am I really this nervous he thought.
E6 E6 E6, there it is.
“That’s my classroom” he said with a sigh
As he got closer to the door his heart was beating faster, the clock was 8.21. He was 21 minutes late looking like he just ran the marathon. Maybe I should go back home and try again tomorrow he thought.
No, I have to do this.
He knocked on the door two times standing and almost shaking. Stop it Damien, it’s just humans, nothing to fear he thought for himself.
The door opened and a man in his 30ths sticked his head out.
“Uhhh, hi, i’m Damien, I’m a bit late bu…..
The teacher cut him off before he got to finish his sentence.
“It’s okay Damien, We have been waiting for you” he said in a calm voice.
“My name is Blake. Welcome to our town, we are happy to have you here” he said with a smile on his face.
He put his arm on my shoulder walking me into class.
“Everybody listen up! This is Damien. He is new to the town and to our class. I want somebody show him around the school and town.”
I stood there like if I just came out of military training, all stiff, having a nervous smile on my face. I knew I looked stupid but if tried to change it now people would notice.
“So? who wants to show Damien around after class?” Blake said in his calm voice
A guy put his hand up
“I’m down for it” He said in a confident tone “I will tell him all our secrets too” he said with a grin on his face.
“Thank you Levi, you can take a seat Damien”
There was an empty seat in the back. People glanced at me as I walked by, can they see my stains? could they see im nervous?
“He is kinda cute” a girl said
Cute? Damien looked towards were the voice came from. There was 4 girls sitting together, and one of them was staring right into my eyes with a smile. My eyes went back to the floor trying to make my way to my seat. My heart was pounding again, faster than before.
I sat down trying to pick my eyes back up and 3 of the 4 girls was looking back at me giggling.
I looked at them with a nervous smile trying to be as cool as possible. They could probably see through it.
“Skylar” one of them whispered to their friend who didn’t pay any attention to me
She stopped staring through the window and looked her friend in the eyes.
“What is it?” she asked in a annoyed voice “What are you all so hazy about?”
Her friends turned their head all looking my way. She slowly turned her head looking into my eyes.
Her eyes froze on me and mine on her. It felt like the whole class went silent. We sat there staring in eachothers eyes. Her friends looked at her then back at me and then back at her. They were laughing but we didn’t even flinch. I could feel my heart slowing down. As if her eyes calmed me down. I’ve never seen anyone like her. Her big blue eyes and brown hair with lips you only could dream of.
My heart slowed down, this day just got alot better....