Hi there! It's that time of the week again when I stop to reflect what I've learned, felt and experienced recently and what my next action should be.You should also give it a try! It's like having a meeting all by yourself for the only organisation you are a life time member of: yourself. Some know and some don't but I've started to study leadership now. I mean I've always studied leadership in some way, shape or form but now it is a official course at uni. There is something about leadership that makes me want to always get back up and never stop trying. I've been around leaders and I've been in leading positions myself and most of us have and will. So I think it's important to develop within this field and understand more than just what makes a leader good or bad.
Right now I study organisations and up to this point I didn't realise that the entire society is one large organisation and consists of organisations so basically it is the glue that keeps everything together. It may sound grey, mundane and boring but it is a whole new world (🎶) to explore. You might not even understand how much of your current life is influenced or happening around organisations but the fact that we don't notice means that we've gotten used to constantly being influenced by something or someone. This is why I don't understand influencers. They are the ones being influenced because they are told what to sell and how by you guessed it organisations. This means that despite how much they quote freedom on their Instagram they are still working within the system like everyone else. So I have decided why not view and refer myself as an independent organisation among other organisations? I will now tell you how this organisation manages her existence.
Something I dream of
There are two dreams I keep having often now and those inspire me a lot in my day to day life. The first one is a daydream. I first got it while traveling by train. I was standing at Helsinki Railway Station waiting for my train and I saw the Allegro train to St. Petersburg stop right in front of me. I noticed that it also stops in Vyborg which I didn't know before. I have this thing with Vyborg. Me and Vyborg go wayy back. The first time I "visited" Vyborg was when I dreamt of the Vyborg library designed by Alvar Aalto. It was the most beautiful place I've ever seen. The large windows painted sunlight all over the books and the staircase, the staircase! Perfection in my eyes. My dream could be described as the scene in Titanic when Rose starts her last journey and the ship turns back to life. At the time I didn't know what library I had dreamt of, all I knew was that it was a place for me, the home for my soul. And suddenly I saw a picture of the same staircase in a magazine. I started to cry. It was in the middle of the day and I had discovered that the place I love the most wasn't only a dream it was in fact a real place. I visit Vyborg in my mind when I feel down. But when I saw that train I thought of leaving everything behind to visit my dream in reality. One day I will.
The other dream was very historical. One other interest I have is ancient Egypt. I especially study The book of the dead and the scroll of Ani. In my dream last night I was and egyptian priest preforming the sacred mumifying ritual together with other priests one dressed as Anubis, the egyptian god who protects and guides the deceased on their journey towards the afterlife in the uncreated parts of the universe. I felt so honored dreaming about this it felt like I actually witnessed a real spiritual event and travelled back in time while dreaming. It was so beautiful. The temples and pyramids we see today weren't empty or dark instead filled with daylight and color, such beauty. Maybe Egypt is calling me?
Breakfast and Cosmopolitan (magazine not the drink) on the go
Something I don't understand
This is something I've discussed with my friends a lot recently: how should one act around a Youtuber? Tell me if you know. I mean they are regular people but it's difficult not to view them as a public figure when they are you know public speakers. So if I go up to them and just say hi, maybe they will think that I'm a viewer who tries to hard not to make it obvious that I am their viewer. And if I compliment their work they might wonder why because "They are just regular people". So what should one do not to make the interaction awkward? This is something I need to know since I want to connect with a few of them. Hahaa you might notice how much I overthink things when reading this but it's okay my friends laughed too.
Something I like to watch
Do you have a go to movie you always watch because you know it will not dissapoint you? I bet we all do. Mine is Lost in translation. I often find myself wanting to watch something but finding it hard to focus on something new so I put on Lost in translation and watch it instead of doing something smart and going to sleep. The entire movie is like visual ASMR for me.
Something I feel
I feel that it's okay to feel. I sometimes like the feeling of not feeling anything which means I gather a lot of emotions inside me and they always come out in the wrong place and time but recently I've exercised my reactions. Yesterday I got annoyed so I decided to feel the feeling instead of avoiding it. This may sound like something obvious but I struggle to understand that I cannot be happy 247 and that's normal.
Tell me something.