Hey! 🍕🥂

Me and some of my friends decided to have a casual NYE celebration and what could be better than talking and pizza? I'm still a bit whimsical after a 6h 30 min flight and 2h bus ride back home from Tenerife but I'm also very excited to be back already in order to celebrate New year. New year usually just goes by and I don't much notice that the year has change since I usually have spent New year in an airplane which I btw recommend! It is very cosy and festive and what better way to view fireworks? Anyways it's always pretty great to spend a day relaxing in great company. How are you guys celebrating NYE this year or usually? I hope you will have a great celebration in good company and an amazing 2019 filled with new opportunities! I did a short little review on my year bellow so if you're interested check it out! 💋

My airplane mode. I bring out the candy and magazines and watch movies and just enjoy the moment. I just think that flying is one of the best activities. (read best way to relax)

Life lessons and mental health

My year has been pretty awesome but it has also been very difficult. I have felt like I've been put to the test mentally the entire autumn. But I think and hope that I have and will continue to work with my bad habbit of overthinking. The reason I call it a habbit is that if you let it take over it takes over, but if you just live and continue to enjoy your life it's almost impossible for overthinking to take place. But if I would need to mention one important lesson I've learned during 2018 it would be that I always need to have some interesting projects going on in order to feel inspired by life and happy but I'm also allowed to say no and stay in if I actually feel that I need it.

The best part

The best part of 2018 was definitely the summer! I worked in manual labor and was in very good physical shape and during my freetime I had all sorts of cool adventures with friends. I visited friends in different parts of the country, spent glorious days in Helsinki and Turku and drank wine on the balcony. I also visited festivals and amusement parks and had several picnics at the beach. And ate why too much sushi and pizza hahaa.

Career

My career developed a little bit as well. This year I started working as a substitute teacher and I loved it. It was truly amazing to get to know my students and learn together with them. It felt refreshing to be able to work from time to time and taking much needed breaks from studying. As for writing I became a more active blogger, writing more frequently than ever before, which I am proud of since it has become one of those good habbits. Regarding art I felt more confident sharing my works of art on social media.

Trips and bucketlist

The best trip of this year was when I visited my lovely friend whom lives and works in Sweden and together we also visited Copenhagen it could not have been a better Easter!

I even managed to check of some things on my bucketlist. In the summer I went kayaking for the very first time and in the winter I went skiing together with my students and that was a unique experience! And maybe something which also could be added to the list of new experiences and knowledge is the fact that I learned more about tarot and crystals (yes I love that type of stuff).

So as a conclusion it was a good year, not the best possible year like 2015 was for me, but it was still a very important year when I got to learn how to take better care of myself. In 2019 I hope I'll be able to travel more (perhaps even work as a flight attendant) and learn how to code but I truly hope I will feel much better mentally.

Happy New Year 2019! 🎆🎉

❤️:Rebecka

Hello darlings! 💋 Today I feel like I've made the most out of life! It feels like I'm walking on sunshine. I enjoyed a lovely breakfast at the balcony and started to list things/goals for the upcoming year. Then I've walked around without constantly checking up on social media and what time it is. In the early afternoon it was all about spotting waves and cool surfboards. But I chose rock climbing as my beach activity and since it was during low tide I saw eye to eye with all kinds of creatures such as crabs. Now I am just resting and thinking about eating out tonight. What do you guys do during these sometimes annoying days between Christmas and Nye?

/Rebecka

Although my body is free to rest it feels like my mind is constantly working. Especially now when my environment is free of stress I tend to reflect on things. It seems to me that my entire way of thinking is shifting. The old patterns and reactions don't seem to be enough anymore.
I don't know what I want to do in my future. This causes a fire inside of me. I've always made lists the kinds that list your goals for years ahead but did I ever stop to think if those goals would serve me well in the future? No.

I also didn't think about the fact that people change and as I am a person (not a robot as I usually wish I could be) I am also allowed to change. In fact if you sense that you are in need of change I think it would be healthy to follow your gut feeling and try not to resist the change. It feels like there is something within in me waiting to be discovered and it can't come out unless I actually let myself go through this change, the longer I will resist the longer it takes for me to discover that something. I've started to question myself a lot. Am I actually an introvert? Do I choose to be shy in certain situations even if I know I'm capable of being social and brave? Why do I hold on to certain roles more than others?

What I do know is that I have a certain strive to see beauty in everything. It is really important for me to be surrounded by beauty. But the thing is my visions on what beauty is doesn't often match with that of the general public. The thing with general beauty is that it's easy to understand why people like certain things, maybe a trend will make them see a certain item or diet from a different perspective because that new perspective has just been discovered. What I mean by this is that in the beginning nothing was either ugly or beautiful it is decided which one is which and this decision is made on both and individual and collective level. I like the individual level, obviously.

Then there is nature something almost everyone thinks is beautiful. But when we think about it, all things in the world are beautiful and ugly at the same time. A beautiful shirt takes hours to be made and the process might harm the person making the shirt or the environment but it doesn't take away from the fact that the shirt itself is pretty. A stone maybe average and look much like nothing but if it brings someone luck and is passed on for several generations it suddenly has a beautiful meaning. Plants and animals are beautiful and have all kinds of different purposes but that doesn't mean that nature is equal to harmony in fact it is pretty much a chaos out there if you ask me, but it can also be called a beautiful mess.

It might be creepy, but I have realised that most things aren't just one thing. Humans included. I think we have an urge no matter if we choose to admit it or not to change perspective once in a while in order to grow ourselves a deeper connection and understanding of life.
So dear person, remember that you are not only one kind of person, inside you there are a million new things to be discovered if you let them be discovered.

/Rebecka