Understanding why and how my burnout was caused was the first part of getting well. Next I needed to organize some time to rest and in order to do that I needed to feel confident in saying no some things but you see that part was linked to a larger issue: I had a selfworth that was based on productivity. The more I did the better I would feel. So I needed to track the very beginning of the problem which was me thinking that I was never the cool and pretty girl therefore I needed to be the good academic girl but playing a role like that made me tired since my true nature is being a real hot mess enjoying every single moment in life and philosophically thinking my way through in life - that is me. So this year I got to know myself again and get in touch with the real me a person who needs creative outlets in life in order to cope.

Year 2017 thought me how to be myself. As odd in seems to say it: I am thankful to have experienced a burnout at an early age because now I will never want to get to that point in life ever again, it acted as a warning sign and a reminder to practice a type of love called selflove. This holiday season is the prime time to think about what you have achieved in life and next year will be the perfect time to act upon dreams in order to make them reality.

Merry Christmas 🎄 and a Happy New Year 2018! 🍾

/Rebecka

Early in the morning the servant packed her bags and left the castle for the first time in many years. She reached the home of the Exlibris couple within few hours because the city wasn't very big at all. Three times she knocked on their large wooden door until Mrs. Exlibris annoyingly interuppted her reading in hopes of seing her beloved sun return from his travels. Instead of her stood a pretty little creature with a large backpack and curly hair. That must be a princess she thought to herself. - How can I help you dear? Mrs. Exlibris asked. - I am here to find an answer to a rather difficult questions I'm afraid. - Well then you must come in and find out what that answer could be! We have a library filled with knowledge and answers to all questions one might stumble upon in life. - Will I get a direct answer? the little servant wondered. - Maybe if that is what you are looking for. May I ask you what is that question you are pondering on currently? Mrs. Exlibris started to get curious as the academic woman she was. - Well of course! In fact I was hoping that you could help me with finding the answer, I might not know how to find it myself. You see, I work for the princess of this town and last night she like myself admired the most beautiful sky in many many years. - Yes my godness what a wondeful sight it was! - Yes definitely, the servant continued, it was something alright. I was about to say that she wanted me to get her the sky at least a piece of that sky as in a physical piece of that sky. And I on the other hand told her that no human could ever own a piece of the sky. What do you think?
- Maybe you should sit down and have some tea with us love? My husband will join us in a minute and he is quite talented with questions of this sort.

In the castle the princess was getting ready for a new day but she was anxious because deep down she had a feeling that something would get in her way of being able to get her hands on a piece of the incredible night sky.

Apolloderus streched his hands towards the sky. The entire night he had spent writing poems about the sky hoping they might be on to something and bring him the fame and fortune he would deserve and knew he could achieve deep down in his heart.

-Your questions is not impossible but like you say   it is a bit difficult to solve but do not worry little servant! I have a possible solution. My son was born with the gift of storytelling. He can probably write and even draw an exact description of the sky last night and in a way the princess would get something even better than an actual piece of sky, she would get a gift of imagination and creativity. - That sounds like an amazing idea! But I do not know if the princess would be happy with that. - Well then she is isn't a true princess. Mr. Exlibris explained. - Why? the servant asked.
- Hmm, well a real princess understands beauty and not only will want to own it. Beauty in real life fades but beauty can last forever in ones mind.

To be continued

There is something with walking that makes me out of the world happy. It makes the thinking flow fast as the speed of light. Also landscapes are seen from a different perspective than through a car window and the sounds all around makes the nature feel like the greatest masterpiece there is. In my opinion that is not based upon any scientific proof people are made to walk and run. I get that extra kick of motivation to do so by keeping track of the amount of steps I take per day. Maybe that is a habbit to continue next year?

Other than that I had interesting conversations today and socialized with people who mean a lot to me - which is the essential ingridient of Christmas. A Christmas walk in town did not only contribute to a wonderful feeling but also into the decision to buy in my opinion the best book I've bought this year and to those who don't know:I buy plenty of books, way too many some could say! Anyways I finally got myself a book about Indian cuisine. For many years India has been the most fascinating country in my mind. Gandhi, Holi, Yoga, Hinduism, Varanasi.. So many things that I love to learn more about. Therefore I will put effort into learning some of these traditional recipes by heart and hopefully manage to surprise someone with a new taste experience.

Have yourself a lovely evening! ❤️

/Rebecka