I live in an apartment, it has got a door like apartments have and in order to open up my door you need a key. If I would know you very well and we've had at least a few very deep conversations and memorable moments together I might give you the other key to my apartment. You see there are two keys, on for me and one for someone special that I haven't got to know yet. The way to my heart is exactly the same. My heart is a door to which only one person has the key.
The keyperson to my heart has to be someone whom I share my whole life and inner world with. We do not need to feel the same way about everything or have the same interests. We could sort of complete each other or be complete opposites because sometimes opposites do attract. But what I wish for is to hear what that person feels when reading books or looking at a piece of art or a political debate. And most importantly I want to know about that persons life and be a part of it because life is something of great value and everyone of us experience it in very different ways.
Remember when you were little and you had a crush on your bestfriend because he or she knew all about you and you knew all about them. You grew to love the way they looked because you had fallen in love with their inner world first. When your parent read you a bedtime story about a princess and a prince you imagined yourself and your crush and as the prince and princess and you kissed in the end of the story and you lived happily ever after. That happily ever after never seemed important as a kid, you only wished for a kiss or maybe a hug and when sexual education and dating in general started to happen all around me it felt odd. I still only wanted that kiss and I only wanted it from that one friend of mine whom I had known for many years.
I understood why other people wanted to date someone based on their looks, later in life I understood why people wanted to have one night stands. But I couldn't imagine doing these things myself. Many times I felt pressured to be more sexual than I really wanted not by anyone else but by myself and society. I felt pressured to date even if deep down I really did not feel like it. My friends had many crushes and I felt happy for them. When I had a crush it lasted way too long and I got way too emotional about it. My crushes were people I admired. They were great public speakers, kind leaders or amazing musicians that I sometimes worked together with. I wanted to know everything about them so that they wouldn't feel like strangers anymore. When someone asked me if I had a type I answered: nerd. But I really fell in love with people because of their intelligence and their passion towards something not their looks and as I got to know them, their personality and looks appeared to me togheter as a whole. But it never started with the glasses or the books it always started as an interest towards what they had inside their mind that I did not know about yet. I liked them for who they were as people.
When I grew up in an art school I learned how visually beautiful the facial features and human bodies are. I never felt embarrased to make a sketch when that guy in class who my friends thought were hot was our model. I thought he was a arrogant person but he still had beautiful features. Don't you just love the way he looks? They whispered. Yes I answered. Then why aren't you all crazy about him? Because I'm not attracted to him. Why? I don't like the way he treats other people.Oh, who is your crush then? And this is part were I invented a crush in order to concentrate on my drawing and this happened to me often, very often in fact when I was growing up.
Do you believe in love at first sight? I do but not as in I see someone good looking and they just happen to smile my way but as in I have the honor to meet someone who treats others kindly as I walk past them and in that moment they look attractive to me. But I guess I could say that I believe in love on third sight. One:you notice someone with a great personality. Two: You get to know the person with a great personality. Three you feel attracted to the person with a great personality on both a emotional and a physical level.
I've found similarities in myself and the fictional character Jay Gatsby. The way Gatsby descibes the love of his life; Daisy is beyond beautiful. He does not only describe her outer beauty but he has created a own world for them both to live in, he has a vision about Daisy and himself. Almost as if Gatsby thinks that Daisy is a certain type of person. This has happened to me quite often. I imagine what people could be like even if they aren't like that in reality. I also tend to fall in love with a persons potential.
1,2,3, I believe in love at third sight, can you see it in my eyes?