“Instead of causing chaos and rocking someone else’s boat, you need to row your own.” – Unknown

The world is full of denigrators and opinionated people, smashing others out so easily (without thinking twice, perhaps). I was actually one of them and I will never deny of it. As it may appear that opinions nowadays are seen as more of defaming people, it is safe yet to say that there are acceptable opinions which somehow improve people's lives. Constructive criticisms. The thoughts I'm about to share are based on my personal experiences, to which I know, most have been destructive, adverse criticisms. I fully wonder why people (some of whom I'm close with, some are not that much) ask so much about me dyeing my hair, cutting my hair into different styles, and to some extent, living my life with "this and that" and all these b*llsh*ts. I'm actually fine with it now, but before, just to be honest, I'm not a hundred percent sure! (he he he)

I admit that my whole appearance makes me look like I’m a rebel child. Look, I colored my hair so many times and I guess this is precisely the reason why some people do not like me --- how I publicly present myself and what I do with it. I understand that the society has varying perspectives, of course, in view of the fact that people are diverse in opinions and "says". I cannot force anyone to understand my point of view.

But let me do my thing ya’ll.

What I don't really like about these judgmental people, who seem to feel highly intellectual for doing so, is that, just because I look physically different it doesn’t mean I’m literally a bad person. Just a friendly reminder that telling others I'm a bad person doesn’t make you a good one. Hey, basically it will never be a win-win situation between us. So what’s with the fuss? Another reminder, just in case forgotten, my life is not even your story to meddle with and to share with others. *winks*

Don't dare judge wrap up my whole personality into one present when knowing it deeply failed in your end. As far as I am concerned, dyeing my own hair hasn't been hurting anyone. Sometimes, try to ask yourself if these things I do to myself hurt your ego. Or maybe, try to think of it, did the whole process of changing myself (that is opposing with your standard), kill anyone around me? Did I step on their dignity or whatsoever you may presume there? Well, I see some heads miserably bow down there.

This is not just about me; this is for all the people who have been judged and tainted for doing something that makes them happy. I am just being the person I like to be and I like to express myself through this version. Is it even a crime to do the things that make someone happy? I guess no. Look at these people with tattoos and multiple piercings on them, what did they do wrong to you? Some people are even changing their sex orientation just to feel satisfied with their lives. But what is wrong with it? Did it even stress the hell out of you? Anyway, if it doesn’t even involve you, it's never your concern. That's why popular maxim "mind your own business" sprang out, just to give you some heads up!

Well, summing it up, let us all create a peaceful space where we stop pulling each other down. Instead, help each other grow as a person, maybe by backing them up, or in other words, just show your moral support. Be an angel to someone’s hell, they say.


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I think that this whole blog would suck if I start this off by saying I am 20 years old (I just gave you a hint in case you haven’t noticed.). Anyway, I want to make this blog like I’m actually talking to someone personally.
What I am so concerned about this whole “adulthood” thing is that, when people ask me how old I am then I give them my most sincere and honest answer, they would react like “really girl? Are you sure you’re 20?” And it sucks, seriously. I may act like I am smiling on the outside and I’m fine but I am actually slowly smashing your face with a chair inside my head. Anyway, people are so unsure about my age not because I look young. No, it’s not that and it will never be the reason why. It’s not about my height either. IT’S ABOUT HOW I “BEHAVE”.

I know myself more than anyone else in this world. I know how I behave and I always have reasons why I act in such a way that is (they say) unsuitable for my age and is sometimes socially unaccepted.
“When I was 20, I was doing this and that that is unrelated to a childish activity.” – Coming from majority of the people who reacted to my age.
I know. I can do that too. I can act like an adult too. But I chose not to.

Why? Well, for me, every day is my last day to act like a child. You know what I mean? At this age, I still watch cartoons, I still love being goofy and doing silly stuff on purpose, I still love to annoy people around me which are very childish acts but so what, right? The things that I do make me happy and I don’t know why people have to degrade my personality when it doesn’t even concern them in the first place. Also, the fact that you can never turn back time that flies really fast makes me feel like I need to do something that would make me enjoy each and every second of it. And being an adult is not fun (You can argue with me about this but you can never win. Just kidding).

Before reading the next paragraph, first, take a deep breath because I want you to read it fast and full of enthusiastic sarcasm and don’t stop until you see a period. I repeat, do not stop.


Go . . .
20 years is never enough for me to fly and spread my wings like a little child with the sparkling look in her eyes because she is so excited for each morning to come since she doesn’t have assignments and bills to think about, just spend a whole day with her colorful and cute toys that she could share with her friends who also got no adult dilemmas to think of and THEY GOT THE BEST LIVES EVER! (Now you can breathe)

Nevertheless, to the people I know who are overacting about my age because it is seemingly contradicting to how I behave, please do bear with me. This whole “adult” thing makes me sad and no one can stop someone from being an adult unless you decide to kill them though, it’s another story.

Anyway, maturity doesn’t come with age. There are people younger than me who act so mature, and they can get a lot of comments on why they act like adults even if they are still too young to act like one or they should enjoy their generation first or stuff like that. And there are other people like me who are still enjoying what younger people get to enjoy. I am one of those who aren’t shy of expressing ourselves. I can’t hide my feelings regarding how envious I am with the little kids right now. I used to play the games they do. *sigh*
To end my blog, I just want to share with you guys that you can always act like an adult anytime you want but the chances of doing stuff that are fun and are for younger people only are little by little lessened because, once again, time flies.

Anyway, HAVE A NICE and HAPPY LIFE! :)
*drops mic*