My brows have always been such a pain in the butt hole when it comes to doing makeup. I mean, I had to cover them with glue to get a decent look but even that did not always look so good.

My best friend Elin has worked for Sephora for a long time and just a few months back she got a new job, still working at Sephora but for Benefits cosmetics. I am so happy for her because she really loves working for this brand and they specialize in brows. Till this day she has done my brows twice, and I am very satisfied. The way she does my brows helps me to do better makeup looks, so thank you so much, Elin, I love you.

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The year 2015 was a tough year for me. I had broken up with my best friend, I had quit my job and was going to study French at the university. After just one and a half month at the university, I had a mental break down and I had to seek help. I was depressed and I had anxiety, and worst of all, I wanted to die. I felt like I did not have anything to live for, I felt like a loser.

One day I ended up at the psychiatric emergency and it was one of the worst feelings ever. I never want to go back there, never ever! It was awful because I had to take off my shoes and take off my belt so that they could lock it away from me. This moment in my life was probably the lowest point ever. I have suffered from depression and anxiety for a long time. I remember when it all started, I was 12 when I first cut myself and I wanted to disappear from this world. From that point, it has been going back and forth, periods of happiness and periods of depression.

2015 I finally got help and they decided to medicate me, which has really helped but lately it has been getting worse...again. Now I am fighting again and hopefully I will get better. I do not have a lot of trust in my new doctor though and she does not seem very knowledgeable. I have a meeting with her tomorrow and we will discuss my medication and maybe we will do some changes, we will see.

I wish that I could be able to live a normal life in the future, that is my main goal. I want to be able to earn money and go to work without getting anxiety. At the moment I push myself by listening to Rachel Platten - fight song.

"This is my fight song
Take back my life song
Prove I'm alright song
My power's turned on
Starting right now I'll be strong
I'll play my fight song
And I don't really care if nobody else believes
'Cause I've still got a lot of fight left in me"


Wishing y'all a good day.
XO Yeli Hylander


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For a long time now I have not been feeling like my old name as Kylies Gender felt like me. I love that name because it was fun. From now on you can call me Yeli Hylander.

The store behind the name Yeli
It was this summer 2017 when my friend Elin and I went to Starbucks in Alicante. We went for our last breakfast of her vacation. She was visiting me since I was studying Spanish there at a language school and we had the most amazing time together. However, back to the story about my new name.

We ordered food at Starbucks and Elin ordered a drink and as always at Starbucks, they ask for your name. Her name is Elin but somehow the girl that worked there understood her name as Yeli. We both fell in love with the spelling and the name. We decided to pronounce it as Jelly and that is how we found my new name. Yeli for me feels more special and unique than Kylies Gender, and somehow I feel more comfortable with it.

Hylander is my fiancé's last name and it is a name that I fancy a lot, so I took it.

XO Yeli Hylander


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For many people Monday is an awful day, but for me it's the contrary. I love mondays, I love it because it feels like a fresh start. I make plans for the week to come and try to achieve my goals. This is what I'll do today on the first Monday of this month.

- morning workout at the gym.
- study and send my assignment to my professor.
- edit a video and post it on YouTube.

There you have it! Maybe it doesn't sound so exciting but I'm looking forward to all of it.
Wishing you guys a happy Monday.
cheers !

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Having anxiety is horrible. Not being able to live your life like a normal person sucks! Being locked inside of your house for days because you have anxiety for going on the subway, meeting people and other social things, it sucks. However, I'm lucky that my university records most of my lectures which means that I don't have to miss anything when my anxiety is at it's worst.

What to do to make it better?

That's a good question. What do you do when you have anxiety? And what do you to make it better?
I must say that taking care of my mother's dog has helped me a lot. I feel like I have more energi and I leave my apartment at least 4 times every day. Just being with him(the dog, whose name is Jumbo) makes me happier and it's like I have company all the time. I talk to him and we hug each other. He is such a sweet dog and it almost feels like my fiancé, Jumbo and I are a family.
At the moment Jumbo is my cure and my fiancé is the best person in the world., he's just such a lovely man.

Kisses and hugs to y'all.



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Time goes by too fast

My 9 weeks in Alicante has come to an end. I am so happy to be back in Sweden and to finally be home in my apartment. However, I had a good time in Alicante. I did not like the city it self a lot but my school (Colegio international Alicante) was really good. I have studied at three langue schools before and this one was by far the best one.

It feels lovely to finally sleep in my own bed and to finally be able to do more makeup and photos. Here are some pictures of a look a did yesterday.



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Two great news today

First of all, check this video out with Clean Bandit - Symphony feat. Zara Larsson. This was just released a few hours ago and I am in love with the song and the music video. It's on repeat, haha.

Then there was another thing I wanted to bring up. Zara Larsson released her new album today, yaaaaay!!!
Listen to it here --> Zara Larsson, So good Album

This woman is just incredible and I love everything about her. I wish I could look like her.

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My beautiful fiancé

I'm trying to look cool

I am Patrick

Hello you guys,
I'm Patrick, the father of Kylies. I am a 25-year-old guy, living in Stockholm, Sweden and study Computer science at Stockholm University. My passions are, being able to be creative, creating makeup looks, taking pictures and develop my technical skills like programming.

I just thought there should be a little presentation of me since there might be posts in the future of not only Kylies but of my regular life.



I love food

Tel Aviv has been one of the best vacations that I've ever had. The reasons are definitely my travel partner, my fiancé, but also the food. The food over there was incredible. I want to go back again just to eat. Every meal we had was like a food orgasm and I still dream about the food a lot. Even dishes that are not typically israeli, like sushi for example was amazing. The best sushi I've ever had. I am drooling just writing this post, haha.

Anyway, if you go to Tel Aviv prepare yourself to gain some weight and it is totally worth it.

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Santa came early this year

I got so happy today when I found out that my Glossybox had arrived. It literally felt like Christmas was here, almost even better than the real Christmas.

I can't wait to try the products. I especially want to try the mask, which I will probably do tonight. The only thing I have tried this far is the lip balm. It is nothing special, works just fine. The case to it though, it feels pretty cheap. Not a big problem, especially when you are a broke a** student like me.

Products in the box

- Eye lash curler rose copper, Pick and Pinch
- L'eau de rose, Jeanne Arthes
- Matte nude nail polish, Glam of Sweden
- Facial detox purifying recovery mask, Mudmasky
- Lip balm pink dream, Beauty made easy

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I want him to stay with me forever

When I did this look I decided to go for something relatively simple and with some inspiration from Kendell Jenner. The lipstick I used from Estée Lauder was the pure color envy envious. It give a bit of a shine which I love <3

Best product from Estée Lauder would be the sumptuous black mascara. I did not use it on these pictures, however, it is one of my favorit mascaras.

On the first picture you might have seen a dog, if not, you better go and fix yourself some glaces. I am taking care of this dog for two weeks and we are having a blast together. Who know a little company could make me so happy? I don't want these two weeks to be over. I want him to stay with me forever.



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