​Oh, I forgot to mention this..

Mostly because I'm embarrassed, but oh well...

Yesterday, I noticed how much my arm hurt... and I just couldn't think of why it hurt or why I got a bruise.

And then..

I realized it's bruised because I walked right into my wall the other day..

I don't really know what I was doing.. 

But I had my arms out, If I was stretching or changing, I don't know. But I was walking out of my room and bumped into my wall.

And it hurt like hell...

Still hurts...

I don't know how I managed to just walk right into the wall...? 

Didn't I realize that I wouldn't be able to walk right through it..?

Or didn't I see it? 

What was I even thinking?

Like.. What in the world..?


That me... 

Don't be afraid to explore



Design your blog - select from dozens of ready-made templates or make your own; simply “point & click” - click here!



Hello blog,

I haven't really posted today have I...?

Well the other post was saved for times like these...

I was pretty productive today!

I cleaned, because I was bored..

And then I went to town because I got even more bored of waiting and just sitting and doing nothing.

Bought some Halloween decorations. But forgot to buy most of the things my moma told me to buy.

All I could think since I woke up this morning was to eat frozed yoghurt...

So that's what I ate:)!!

I'm really bad at remembering to take pictures of whatever.

But I did remember to take a picture of the yoghurt, even though it looks exactly like last time I ate it. Hahah

What else..?

I went back home and just stayed in bed.

Or no I actually prepared some decorations and stuff. Set some things up.

Look terrible so far!

That was basically my day ..

Soooooo yummy,

Excuse my messed up thumb haha.

Don't be afraid to explore





All I have to offer and share these days are stories.

Sorry about that ..

Because here's another story, and I honestly hope that no one else can relate...

So.. Last year.. I wanted to get my sister something nice for her birthday since I was in the US...

I got her this Nude Too Face Chocolate naked palett or whatever it's called hahahahah... Anyways it was eyeshadow or some makeup crap...

(If you haven't noticed yet.. I'm not really into all that beauty thing..)

It was quite expensive for my wallet... but I was like.. Hey, why not get her something nice for once? It was around $50 with all the other stuff I got her..

And I was like, alright, I got her something she really wanted, and something she loves, which is makeup. And makeup is expensive as hell... Like wth......!

I thought that, since I've been so nice to her on her birthday that she was gonna get me something nice for my birthday as well..

She went to the cheapest store in this town...

And she got me a wig... for 6 bucks... That was suppose to be used at my graduation party since we were gonna have a photobooth...

I was like... Seriously...?

She couldn't even get me a little side gift besides the wig...?

Let me just add... the wig was ugly as fuck and barely fit my head...

I'm like... heartbroken.. like seriously...?

And this summer, when she got a "real" job, my mom told her to buy me dinner when we went to the beach..

She got me fries... And I asked her if I could get a drink as well...

Her answer was "We can share mine"

I know that she gets that from my mom 'cause all my mom care about is money.. and she always said that she is not as horny for money as mom is...

Well... Maybe not.. But she sure as hell can't spend it..

We were gonna go to London as well btw.. and I was like "Alright, let's go, I can skip school... I already missed a semester, another week won't make a difference"

Let me just add... I had school, and not a job. She had a part time job but still worked a lot..

It ended with her saying that she couldn't because she couldn't "afford" it...

I even offered to pay her plane ticket...

Like... omg.. I'm such a nice sister!

Unlike her.

She couldn't afford a $40 plane ticket but she could spend around $200 on her hair..

And now when I went to Ibiza, she wanted to go as well. Maybe not to Ibiza, but it was Spain I think.

But then she said that I was too boring... -.-

So I decided to pull a mini prank..

I told her that I entered a competition thingy, to win a free week at the hotel I stayed at when I was in Ibiza..

She didn't pay attention.

I said that I won.

It took her about 30 seconds, maybe a minute then she realized that I said that I won.

And of course I turned non-boring and funny and whatever, Because she wanted me to take her with me...

NOw when I think about how ungenerous she is.. She won't be getting anything for Christmas.. at least not from me..

Maybe something small that isn't worth anything..

She's lucky that I even gave her fancy earrings for her birthday..

Not that she deserved them...

So... that's a part of my sister.

I sure hope that she is nicer to her friends at least.

Hope you enjoyed my frustration when it comes to my sis :)!!

Don't be afraid to explore

And spend... Money is just money anyway, it comes and goes





​Okay, so here's the deal ...

I'm extremely bored..

So I'll just answer some "Get to know me questions" from the website: http://www.signupgenius.com/groups/getting-to-know-you-questions.cfm

  1. Who is your hero? Well.. I don't really have one? 
  2. If you could live anywhere, where would it be? ​Probably Los Angeles. Or Hawaii, seems chill there. Or Spain.
  3. What is your biggest fear? Just one thing!? Vomit..
  4. What is your favorite family vacation? Italy
  5. What would you change about yourself if you could? I'd change my skin... Becuase it's messed up..
  6. What really makes you angry? People who try to boss me around
  7. What motivates you to work hard? My parents annoyance
  8. What is your favorite thing about your career? ​I don't have a career? Yet
  9. What is your biggest complaint about your job? That I don't have a job?
  10. What is your proudest accomplishment? So far.​The documentary I did in school which my teacher didn't even look at... fucker.. The editing was sooooooooo goood!!! yes, I'm bragging..
  11. What is your child's proudest accomplishment? I don't have kids...
  12. What is your favorite book to read? ​Star-crossed by Rachel Wing
  13. What makes you laugh the most? My own stupidity.
  14. What was the last movie you went to? What did you think? Finding Dory! Loved it
  15. What did you want to be when you were small? Librarian or a cashier hahahaha
  16. What does your child want to be when he/she grows up? Omg... I don't have kids...!!
  17. If you could choose to do anything for a day, what would it be? ​I'd leave and never come back
  18. What is your favorite game or sport to watch and play? ​Favorite game... Probably Mario Cart or The Sims or Super Smash Bros
  19. Would you rather ride a bike, ride a horse, or drive a car? What the hell... Drive a car I guess..
  20. What would you sing at Karaoke night? ​Macarena! Or The Ketchup song, even though I don't know the words. Or some sad song like How to save a life  hahaha
  21. What two radio stations do you listen to in the car the most? ​Which ever that plays Shawn Mendes or any other good artists
  22. Which would you rather do: wash dishes, mow the lawn, clean the bathroom, or vacuum the house? Vaccum the house
  23. If you could hire someone to help you, would it be with cleaning, cooking, or yard work? Yard work
  24. If you could only eat one meal for the rest of your life, what would it be? Oh really.... Probably shrimp and ham pizza... but then I'd be fat... 
  25. Who is your favorite author? ​Nicholas Sparks

These were only 25 questions out of 100..

I guess I'll save the rest for some other time! 

I hope you got to know me a bit :)!



Lonely I'm so lonely

I have nobody

To call my own

No b​ut honestly, I am so borrrrrrrrrrrred.........

I have nothing to do..

I don't wanna start watching a new series because I won't be able to finish it..

And I don't have the patience to sit and watch....

I want to dooooo something.

But everyone is busy...


I don't feel motivated to do anything.

And with the rainy weather, I don't wanna go out..

So there isn't much to do..

I can't even start packing because I still need the clothes I'm taking with me..

And I don't know what to pack either..

I'm just... I don't know..

I just feel really empty...

If I haven't found anything fun to do in a few hours I might pop up again with another post! 

You guys are getting quite lucky with all these posts aren't you?!

Don't be afraid to explore





Hello readers

Today has been a pretty boring day.

I barely got any sleep so I went straight to bed once I got back home

But even then I couldn't fall asleep.

So I hope I'll be able to fall asleep fast tonight.

Even though I'll probably just stay home tomorrow

Anyway, here is the new vlog :)

I really need a few more before I leave for Wales next week.. But I have nothing to record since the weather here is depressing and there's nothing to do...

Don't be afraid to explore





Well well,

Hello blog,

Aren't you lucky today..?

Three posts in one day?!

Thank my mother for this post, because she just pissed me off :)!

And I feel quite proud that I didn't snap.

I kept saying "Moving out next year!"

If that will happen, I don't know.

I hope so, because I can't stand another year in here.

I feel so lucky for going to Wales in barely 2 weeks,

But then when I'm back I'll turn into a maid again..

And it pisses me off.

First of all... Mother. You married dad, not me..

Actually, it doesn't matter.

But I'm not his babysitter..

What the hell...?

But she somehow thinks that I am.

God that annoys me....

I don't know if I want to continue to study next year after summer....

If I do then I wanna get out of this country once again:)!

I don't know where I wanna end up though...

Urgh.. I'm just lost..

I just want to get my own place, have an alright job for now.

Or when I get back from Wales I want to have an alright job, actually I just want money ahah...

And if my family are leaving next winter, then adiós, I'll leave as well but to the other direction. Maybe.. I don't know.

I just wish life was a bit easier...


This post probably didn't even make sense.. 

I'll summarize it for you all:

I'm tired of being the family slave.

I want to move out

I want to get far far faaaar away from my family. Where they can call and ask me how I am and stuff but where they can't tell me what and what not to do!

Thanks for reading my thoughts in a post hahah :)

Don't be afraid to explore





Okay, so a back story to the story!

When I was 12, I think, we went to the country my parents are from. We lived with a family that offered to rent out their room.

The family had 4 boys. And their cousin lived with them as well.

One of the boys had a crush on me...

He was 15 back then

And I guess I had a crush on him as well. But I think it was because he has a crush on me and I didn't want him to feel bad.

Even though he knew I liked someone back home.

When I went home we still managed to keep in touch sorta. For a few months...

He even created a blog dedicated to me.. it was so weird..

Even though we were mad young.. He was still "I can wait forever!" "You're my princess" blablabla... Barf..

geeeeezzzzz that was so stupid hahahah.

We thought we'd meet after two years, aka, when I was 14.

But we didn't. We met once again when I was 16 I think. Or was I 17...?

Anyways, he had a girlfriend, which I already knew after like a few months when we cut contact..

My dad kept saying that she looked like my cousin.. And everyone know that I look exactly like that cousin.. So he basically said that she looked like me, but in a "nice" way..

Anyways, we met.. It was super awkward and I was just extremely uncomfortable.. But it was done, and he and his girl had an on and off relationship I guess...

Last night..

I was stalking a person I shouldn't be stalking because I always end up drowning in my tears hahha.

But when searching or someone, I saw this guy's account..

And his profile picture was of him, his girl I guess and a baby...


I don't know if it's his baby, but my first thought was "Holy shit"...

If it is his kid, which I'm pretty sure it is.. Holy shit.. you're 21... what the hell...

Like.. I hope his happy and all...

But oh my gosh..

I feel like everyone I know are getting married, having kids and all, and I'm just here. Watching TV-series and stuff.

Like whuuut?!?!!?

I'm still in shock. He was my friend after all.

How funny wouldn't it be if the kid wasn't his but a sibling or something..

No actually.. I don't think so, their mother was afraid to have another boy because she really wants a girl.

I'm not sure how to end this story...

I'm glad he didn't wait forever for me. Because... I don't want to be a teen mom.. hahahah.. heh..

But yeah.. Funny story .. ?¨

Okay... so, it's been a few hours later since I've written this, and just for fun I decided to look him up again, just to see if what I saw was a baby..

Uhm, safe to say that it's not another baby sibling..

Still in shock, but oh well.

I just hope it'll last between them since he is a player and the girl is.. well, I don't know her, but what he said, controlling or whatever?

I dunno, not my problem, just something that made me think. Having a kid now... no thanks. Maybe in 7 years or so, how old will I be then? 26? Nah, maybe 28 or 29... I dunno..?

It's so weird to think about..

Anyways, I hope you readers enjoyed 

Don't be afraid to explore 

(The world, that is, wait with the babies and stuff)





​I feel like I've been soooo productive today.

And it's not even 3 p.m yet hahahahha...

Well, I forced myself to stay up so I wouldn't fall asleep way too late tonight.

I killed a spider that scared the crap out of me... Since it was crwaling on my pillow and I was all comfy ... 

I worked out... I could easily manage half an hour on the treadmill before, but since I've got back on my feet, I haven't really been able to, until today :) so yay me :)

I even prepared dinner, cleaned, took a shower, and now sitting here and writing.

I'm starving, but I'm waiting for my mama.

Or I'm waiting for dinner since it's my favorite... My sister and I call it "brains" but it's not really brains...

It just looks like brains.. Well, actually it doesn't. But anyway...

I guess I can feel proud of myself for once this week.

I actually got up and did something productive :)! 

Oh, I'll maybe post a story later! 

Which story it will be, I don't know yet since I have a few saved up hahah.

I hope your day if going well, and that you've had a great week. If not, then there's always a next one :)

Don't be afraid to explore





I know that I've been pretty bad at updating..

And when I have updated it's like ... a weird crappy post.

Or just me rambling about whatever and they usually makes no sense...

I said a few weeks ago that I was gonna show you my new wall decor that I did myself:)

And I don't remember if I said this or not, but I want a similar one as a tattoo one day.

Also, I love quotes, so.. there are some on my other walls, but this one is my latest.

I had another quote before... actually it wasn't really a quote, it was song lyric which said

"Take those dreams and make 'em all come true"

Which was really sad to take down because it would get ruined.

And I didn't know if this new one would look as good.

But I'm actually proud of it :)

Don't be afraid to explore