travels, My Day

Right now my self confidence is being tested

My friend is on a skype interview and has left me all alone at a cafe
In an unknown town
It makes me a little anxious

But hey
You got to start somewhere right?
To sit at a cafe all alone is okay

Sure it tests you

And I would love to have a lot more self confidence to do this more often

It's relaxing when I think about it
At first
I sat and shook my leg
But now after sitting down and focusing on writing this post I've calmed down a little and it's a little better.

It's not that bad actually
Though, being without phone would be more challenging

But hey, what to do

I'm free from work until tomorrow at 3.30 so now I'm just living a little

Escaping the prison for a bit

It's refreshing
It's needed

And now I have nothing else to write hahah

Don't be afraid to explore
Love,
ThroughMyEyes

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Weekly feelings

Thought that I'd get one more chance


What would you think of me now?
So lucky
So strong
So proud
I never said thank you for that


Love,
ThroughMyEyes

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My Day, Thoughts

Oh my goodness how I've missed writing on a laptop!

Not that I haven't been able to write on it.

But without internet it's not really fun being on the laptop

Right now I am currently sat on the beach.

The sun is not as strong now so it's alright

I've been sick the last couple of days, but now I guess I feel alright

I'm only stuck with this really annoying cough

But I feel like everyone is getting sick here now a days.

So lately I've been trying to plan my last week in Italy, which will be in October.

I'm not planning on going straight homeone my contract is over.

I think I'll travel a little around Italy before heading home!

But I think it'll be a little way too pricey. But you know what...

If I can then why not :)!


We'll see though.

Maybe not as many days as I planned on, but I just reawlly want to travel around a little:)!

Don't be afraid to explore

Love,

ThroughMyEyes

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Weekly feelings

Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said that it would be this hard


If I could take it all back I would now
I never meant to let you all down
And now I've got to try to turn it all around
Figure out how to fix this
I know there's a way, so I promise
I'm gonna clean up the mess I made
Maybe it's not too late

Love,
ThroughMyEyes

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Thoughts

I'm ready to go home now
Only bad thing is that I'm no where near the end....
I still have less than 2 months left

This place is toxic and it's driving me crazy

I've come to the moment where I just don't care
But by not caring I turn to the "bad" part and it just makes me want to cry...

Toxic...
That's what this place is

The job is great
But the place is not

If I ever come back here it'll be to stay for vacation
And if I ever do.. then I know I've become economically carefree
Because this place is not cheap

I'm just tired now...
Don't want anything to do with this place after this season

Don't be afraid to explore
Love,
ThroughMyEyes

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Thoughts

I want to blog again
But I can't

Mostly because the days here are so exhausting
And also because I don't have wifi
So I can't type on a laptop

I could however make my phone a hotspot
But that would make me tempted to do just go on YouTube while being on the laptop
Or just waste my 3G

I don't know...
I'm just really tired

And it is so exhausting and how and I just want to sleep all day all night
But we've been out most nights so I'm losing so much sleep!

But hey,
It's only a season!!

Don't be afraid to explore
Love,
ThroughMyEyes

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Weekly feelings

Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like it's been forever since you've been gone
Please come back home


How could this happen to me?
I made my mistakes
Got nowhere to run
The life goes on as I'm fading away


I'm sick of this life
I just want to scream
How could this happen to me?


It may be I who never feel

Love,
ThroughMyEyes

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Thoughts, My Day

I feel like people think it's okay to throw dirt at me...

It's not okay
Calling me names is not okay
Telling me I'm this or that is not okay

Joke or not
There is a limit

Yesterday night
I went to the beach with this guy
He has feeling for me
But I tried to tell him that I don't feel the same
Note: this wasn't the first time we had the discussion

It ended with us just yelling at each other
I was a little drunk
He was a little drunk

Got home
And it ended with him telling me he hates me and that he wouldn't talk to me the next day

Today..
I texted him
Asked if he was mad at me
He didn't reply

So I figured he was mad at me still
He didn't talk to me either
What more can I do..?

And at night, this night
He asked where I was
And now wanted to sit outside and talk
But hasn't shown up yet

And speaking of.. got a text that he wanted to be with me tonight..

Alcohol people.. stay away from it if you can haha...!

Yesterday didn't end good
Today was the aftermath and today has been pretty crappy

Don't be afraid to explore
Love,
ThroughMyEyes

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Thoughts

This place....
Yesterday..
I don't even know how to start...
I'm just so frustrated

And it just annoys me
Everything is just...
A bit fat urgh..
Like... what in the world

Right now I just feel like
Don't anyone talk to me today

Keep your distance please

ThroughMyEyes

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