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People say you're going the wrong

way when it's simply a way of your own.

Angelina Julie

LIFE, TRAVEL

It's true!! This is one of those turning points in my life where things really are about to change.. I'm excited and terrified at the same time. In a way it's totally crazy and in a way not at all. I love traveling and wanna commit my life to discovering new places and meeting new people, so it would be crazy and untrue to myself if I didn't go at all; if I stay in a reality that is not making me happy, at least not as happy as I am traveling.

To be honest, I'm nervous for how things will turn out. What if I will not like it there? What if something will happen during my stay? What if I run out of money? Maybe this wasn't a good idea. Ok let's stay in Sweden to be safe. I actually kind of like working 9-5. I like the winter; sometimes. Honestly, it's totally fine to be depressed and sad most of the time. If I have managed to live like that for the past five years I'll be able to do at least five more, right?

That's what my reality has been like. And it's interesting how your brain starts telling you these things as soon as you step out of your comfort zone. I truly and wholeheartedly believe that fear is just an indication of growth (which I also wrote in a previous post about Fear); and so, to become the person you are meant to become in this life; you gotta go through some uncomfortable shit to make it happen. But that is totally up to you. Me myself, however, will gladly take on the challenge to level up.

Also, the story of how this opportunity arose is pretty spectacular. And I've got my curiosity and intuition to thank for that (among a few people as well). It simply started with me attending a speaking event and I was so blown away by the whole thing and by my best friends talk that I had to go for a walk afterwards. On my walk, I passed by something that said "Casa Vintage" and my immediate though was "Ohh.. Vintage!". From that moment, everything has been a constant flow of holy shit moments where I met Nathalie, owner of Casa Vintage, who told me she would be moving to the Gili Islands in August with her two kiddos. Beside from vintage, we discovered our common interest in music; and not just any kind of music. We found out that we both were huge fans of Miguel, and so things lead to a glass of wine and Nathalie also bought a ticket to Primavera Sound to go see our favorite man live in Barcelona. Over brunch on a cozy and bohemian Café in Pla de Palau square she suggested I'd come with her to Indonesia for some assistive work and social media skills.

And now, here I am! With only 30 days until I will walk through the entrance of Arlanda Terminal 5 with one heavy luggage and a pounding heart. It is a crazy thing to do, but staying would be even crazier.

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TRAVEL

My yes slowly opens. They're immediately trying to adjust to the sun as it finds its way through the curtains. Beside me, my jeans are hanging on a chair together with the blue striped t-shirt I have been wearing for the past 3 days. I'm in Sweden. I arrived yesterday is what goes through my mind. Sweden. It feels weird to be home - wherever that is. I don't really have a home. And I don't mind. In fact, I love not having a place to actually call "home", because I feel like home wherever I am. And maybe that is why I have such a hard time leaving a place I like.

Morocco feels closer than it is. Every time I close my eyes I see waves in motion coming towards me. Laying or sitting down; I feel the waves underneath me as I am somehow still on my surfboard. It's weird how even my body wants to remember this last week. And I don't blame it! It's been.. amazing. Everything.

Even though my entire soul wants to go back, like, now; I have other adventures ahead of me. And I'm least said excited for it. I feel like I'm living in another dimension and I don't have time for things that aren't aligned with what I love. A friend of mine siad yesterday, you're traveling so much!!, and my immediate respons was; Because It's my passion! And it hit me, that I've never really seen traveling as a passion of mine. I don't know why or how but it makes me feel alive in a way I hardly can describe. I am simply happy.

I would like to share these moments from this last week in Tamraght, Agadir, Morocco - people. places and fantastic things. That might be what life is all about?

Xx

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TRAVEL

I love this sport!! But it doesn't even feel like a sport.. More like a hobby. But that doesn't even describe it in a fair way either. Because I love the whole lifestyle of surfing. I don't just wanna surf a few weeks every year, I wanna live surfing. That's how I feel!
These three are from our week in Morocco. First time I had surf lessons, but not first time surfing. I have had struggles with keeping my balance before, but after a few days at the camp I could catch every wave I was aiming for. Amazing feeling!! Definitely going back soon.
Ps. I can really recommend Surf Star Morocco. They're amazing and so professional in everything they do!

Xx

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LIFE, VLOGS

For some time now, I've been wanting to start a series of vlogs, interview people about their lives and discuss certain things that might be relevant for humans living in this world today.
This project has been on my mind since a few months ago and I recently recorded the first episode where me and my dad are eating pizza and talking about life. It was really just a moment that approached so I took the change and recorded us for a few minutes.
Here's the first episode for y'all!

Xx

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LIFE

"While we try to teach our children all about life,
our children teach us what life is all about."
– Angela Schwindt

I think it's so interesting how my perspective has changed these eight months working at the school. It's only a few weeks left and that thought makes me realize how much I will miss this job. I've learned so freaking much. When I started, I thought "well this will be a piece of freaking cake", but oh, how I was wrong.. I have had to put up with angry parents, angry children, happy children, sad children, screaming children, screaming teachers, violent children. I have had to wipe the butt of a boy that pooped himself. Twice. I have gotten nose-bleeded on, I have eaten some shitty ass food and I have done it with a smile on my face (most of the time) and I've shed some tears as well. It's not an easy job and I respect all the amazing people who put up with this.

Anyhow, I'm certain about one thing. Children are marvelous. They are freaking geniuses and so smart and so loving. They see possibilities in almost everything they do and they are experts in collaborating with inspiration and idea. Once something pops into their minds, they will hold on to that idea and do whatever it takes (even sneak out from lunch having all the teachers looking for them just to find them drawing on the blackboard back in the classroom) to make it reality. And even though they break every rule over and over and over again, they are somehow able to hatch new ideas, more crazier than the other one, over and over again. I also get ideas. But sometimes I give up and let them go too easily without having even tried. What a waste of good ideas!

It seems that we are born with an ability of acting and creating out of inspiration but somewhere along the way of "growing up", that ability becomes less of a priority. Eventually, we have a much harder time tapping into that source of endless creativity. Maybe that is really what "growing up" is like - losing the ability to be acting out of inspiration?However, I don't think we loose it. Not at all. We only forget we are more than we are sometimes...

The thing is, we have built a society that encourages and promotes a specific way of living. And so, to me, the problem is that our whole life is built on the idea of this standard life. The consequence become that inspiration and playfulness and creativity is put on hold, because there are "more important things" that requires our focus - getting good grades and receiving outstanding feedback on how well you are doing in school, for example. The question I have been asking myself a lot is; good grades for what? My life isn't over only because I don't have straight As'. School is meant to teach for humans to learn - yes - but it is also meant to prepare us for further education. After collage, we are expected to get a well-paying job, and basically work our way to the top. This doesn't apply for everyone. It's only a loose retelling of how we have created this ideal image of life. But life is more than this. At least to me! I wanna be more playful - I have the kids at school to thank for that. They brought out the very best of me. A part that has always been there, but had been forgotten.

In other words; this is what I have learned. By playfulness, creativity and the ability to feel excited (even about the little things), the children have made me realize the importance of living cheerfully and creatively. And doing such out of inspiration. But why is inspiration so important? I think it's our human nature to feel inspiration. it's when your soul is sparkling and when the urge of creating is so big that you HAVE to do whatever you can't stop thinking about.

Children are marvelous. I know I have already written that, and I will probably write it a few more times on this blog, but I just wish everyone could see it in this way; we can learn so incredibly much from children.

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STYLE


I recorded this for Instagram and figured I could post it here while I'm at it.


The consumption of textiles increases at a speed that has gone out of control. 50 years ago, people purchased clothes according to the season. At this time, there are 52 different seasons according to fashion industry where new clothes and trends appear in stores every week.
However, there are multiple ways to make a contribution to a better climate with only a tiny bit of effort!

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LIFE

"What's coming will come
and we will meet it when it does"

– Hagrid

Fear is a great concept. At least when it keeps us from getting hurt or killed. It helps us to decide in what way to act as a danger is approaching – sometimes we can even sense a threat before we've even understood where it's coming from. If we go back in time, our biddies were adapted to a more concrete type of survival and our existence was a constant battle. Our fear was switched ON most of the time – even when we slept during the nightly hours – to analyze every second of life for the sake of protection.

Today, however, our existence is very protected and safe and our needs are most of the time satisfied, so there isn't necessarily as much to be afraid of as there was a hundred thousand years ago. But somebody forgot to tell that to our bodies. Fear works the exact same way as it did back then. The only difference is that our motionless and inactive way of living today has become one of the causes why fear has been forced looking for new ways of approaching us and playing tricks with our body and minds. It's influencing us in decisions of a very basic level which is hard to notice – but with the same goal of keeping us protected.

As a result, we have created a very fear-based society in a lot of different areas. As we grow up, we take on these fears and believe they are relevant in helping us living a fulfilling life. I see different types of fear everyday and some of them are;

  • Fear of the future
  • Fear of illness
  • Fear of being poor
  • Fear of not fitting in and therefor being left behind
  • Fear of success
  • Fear of ourselves

I would say hese are the most common subconscious fears we have. And why I say that is probably I have (and still am), dealing with some of them. And I recognize them in almost everyone I meet. Fear really has us in its grip, doesn't it? The most interesting fears, in my opinion, is the fear of success, fear of ourselves and also the fear of being left behind. 
I have over the last three years been trying to get my head around why I am not where I want to be and doing what I so badly want to be doing. I think it's incredibly interesting because every time I've started with some kind of project I immediately find myself hiding in some kind of apathy and I become indifferent with my life. It's such a deep and hard-to-get-around kind of fear.

I spend a lot of time thinking about this. After all I'm going through this myself at the moment. And the only conclusion I can come up with, speaking of not reaching goals and living the life we want, is that fear is the one and only think that's in the way. I mean, ask yourself this; when were you last acting out of a place of self-trust and not self-doubt? Acting out of self-doubt is fear of being yourself! I sure know I doubt myself a lot. And that's ok. It's after all only evolution leaving its tracks behind. The trick though – and something I believe we all should ask ourselves once in a while – is how do we handle fear? Our brain wants to keep us in the comfort-zone, and doing so it will create an uncomfortable feeling in the body that basically says "STOP DON'T DO IT". And so we hold back. By reading the language our body speaks, a danger is just around the corner. Probably not a tiger or somebody that wants to kill us (hopefully), but the most logical respons is that we keep away from what ever is causing this feeling.

Finally, I want to be able to actually work with this and to find ways of defeating thia kind of mindset. And I think the only way to do that is to walk straight through the fire. Nyberg literally, of course, but whenever my body says "KEEP AWAY" I'd take it as (and this actually makes total sense to me) fear just being an indication of growth. Because I'm the end of the day, it's only a sign that I'm outside of my comfort-zone. And as the quote "great things never come from comfort-zones" says, I'm happy to take the step.

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LIFE

This is a story about that one time I had one of the best nights out.. Wearing a pink onsie..!

Yes, it happened.

And it is also one of those wonderful spain-memeories I have that will always make me smile. But it probably wasn't because of Spain at all. It must have had to do with the person I was living with and the outcomes of our crazy adventures.

Virginia is the absolute craziest, most bossing, independent and most love-giving human I have ever met. One night, over dinner, an idea struck her. She had this idea of us going out in Malaga wearing two of her onesies. I was all in! The idea of us shaking our asses off on a dance floor in the center of Malaga was intimidating. Yet it was exciting. But the thing is – and this is something I've noticed with myself – I get so excited over these kind of random and slightly weird ideas because I love the idea of doing something out of the ordinary. I don't like ordinary at all. But most of the times I chicken out. It's the brain switching to survival-mode every time we put ourselves outside our comfort zones. And this was out of my comfort zone – big time.

However, as we were getting ready – and as my hands were shaking the more minutes that passed – I eventually asked myself; who gives a shit? And, what is the worst thing that could actually happen? I think these questions are two of the most important ones you can ever ask yourself in a situation where you're in doubt. They put everything on its tip. "live or not to live?" or "snooze or loose?" I made a conclusion in which I realized people would care. Not everyone, but some. Because that is how we work. We care what other people do, and we compare it to our own actions as well. If something is out of the ordinary, beyond the norm that is, there are a very few people that will think zero about it at all.

Finally, with our onesies on point and music pumping through the speakers of that crooky piece of vehicle we drove in, our trip to Malaga had begun! There was no turning back now.

We arrived, and it took us about 20 minutes, to the center and the first thing we saw when jumping out of the car was... COSTUMES. Everywhere! Turns out, there was a carnival that exact night and we'd dressed out by misstake. How convenient! Now I'd been nervous for nothing. Not so convenient..

We went to a bar. And then we went to another bar. And another. Then all of a sudden we ended up in a club where we found some polish dudes (at least I think they were polish) whom we started hanging out with during the evening. The night continued in its own glory and we eventually snug into a restaurant for some pizza. (see image above).

Now, I'm really really late for a friends birthday dinner so I'm leaving it at this; have fun, be weird and go out in a onesie (at least once in your life) because it's freaking ridiculously and so much fun! I might come back – or not – to add something but for now, this will be it!

Over and out!

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STYLE

I raraley ever buy new clothes. Newly made, I mean. It's MUCH more fun to experience the thrill of the hunt for that special piece I'm looking for and I'd much rather give my money back to the community than support big corporations.

On the whole, there is always something I can do to contribute to a better climate. I wanna know where things are coming from, what they are made of and who made them. And besides this, Did you for instant know that the average swede buys approximately 15 kilos of clothing each year? I was like," woah!". I can't even fit half of that into my own closet?! And one kilo of cotton requires around 10 000 liters of water in the process from being a seed to becoming textile.. In addition to this, we throw away half of what we buy. That's something to think about, isn't it?

This is why I started buying only second hand a few years ago. Still, I can't make sure a 100% what I buy is made fairly. I can just hope it is and do research on my own.

Anyhow. If you, like me, wanna contribute with something good and sustainable for our planet, animals, humans etc and like clothes.. I have made a list about how to think sustainably when it comes to fashion and why shopping second hand is a hell of a great way of doing such. Here we go!


First of all - your wallet will thank you

Shopping second hand is much more affordable. I could list multiple times when I've found pieces usually worth the double (if not more) than what I paid. The thing is, when you buy you clothes on thrift stores, yard venues and other second hand stores your money stretches much further and you'll save money for other important investments.


Think "style" before "trend"

The quick shifting of trends in bigger fashion companies encourages the "wear and tear" mentality which only leads to overconsumption. Instead, try to find what YOU like. What kind of style do you have and makes you feel like a total boss? Much more fun and personal than following the trends that will come and go every two weeks!


Second hand provides job opportunities 

At least in Sweden. When shopping second hand, organizations such as Stockholms Stadsmission, Röda Korset, Humana, Emmaus, Myrorna to list a few, are able to manage their business and continue working towards helping homeless, immigrants, elderly, and people with social needs.

Think   G R E E N

Buying used clothes and other goods reduces the requirements of manufacturing and keeps more goods from becoming garbage! As a large number of human goods are routinely trashed away, it's considered that a longer life of ordinary items can be used to protect the earth.


Buy less!

Are you familiar with the expression"slow fashion"? Well, now you are! Slow Fashion is an expression which means that you as a consumer prioritize fewer but better clothes. It is that you rarely shop, but when you do, you rather buy high quality clothes, with less environmental impact.


Exchange pieces

Arrange a clothing switch party, invite a few friends, order some pizza and exchange that dull t-shirt of yours which you have gotten tired of for a pair of, I don't know, ankle-cut jeans? Not only is this a great way to get some Feng Shui going in your closet, but it's also a great opportunity of doing something fun and new with friends. Who knows, maybe this will become a repetitive event?


Re-make old stuff

this is one of my favorite ones. Possibly because I'm doing this so frequently with my own clothe that it has become the first thing I do before I donate or sell something. Are you tired of whats in your closet? Then be ready to use your imagination and be creative, because, you can actually create a BRAND NEW (well, almost brand new) design by cutting and sewing a bit in that old cloth just hanging around in your closet doing no good!


Be a minimalist

I was watching a documentary on Netflix called "Minimalism" (surprise, surprise) and it really got me thinking differently about what I wear and when I buy new clothes. I have during this weekend been going through my clothes and it turned out I have 19 sweaters, 32 tops, 13 pair of jeans, 10 or so different shoes, 9 jackets etc etc. WHO THE HELL has the time to wear all of that during even a week?! I surely don't. And that is why I cleaned out 60% of what I own. I decided, for myself and for the sake of this world, that I will try to live as minimalistic as possible when it comes to clothes and other "stuff". Everything I own should fill a function in my life in order for me to keep it, otherwise it's just clutter.. The less you need, the less you buy, the less you throw away! It's a challenge, and aren't challenges supposed to be challenged?


Now I'm gonna go sell some stuff online.

Over and out!

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