It's true!! This is one of those turning points in my life where things really are about to change.. I'm excited and terrified at the same time. In a way it's totally crazy and in a way not at all. I love traveling and wanna commit my life to discovering new places and meeting new people, so it would be crazy and untrue to myself if I didn't go at all; if I stay in a reality that is not making me happy, at least not as happy as I am traveling.
To be honest, I'm nervous for how things will turn out. What if I will not like it there? What if something will happen during my stay? What if I run out of money? Maybe this wasn't a good idea. Ok let's stay in Sweden to be safe. I actually kind of like working 9-5. I like the winter; sometimes. Honestly, it's totally fine to be depressed and sad most of the time. If I have managed to live like that for the past five years I'll be able to do at least five more, right?
That's what my reality has been like. And it's interesting how your brain starts telling you these things as soon as you step out of your comfort zone. I truly and wholeheartedly believe that fear is just an indication of growth (which I also wrote in a previous post about Fear); and so, to become the person you are meant to become in this life; you gotta go through some uncomfortable shit to make it happen. But that is totally up to you. Me myself, however, will gladly take on the challenge to level up.
Also, the story of how this opportunity arose is pretty spectacular. And I've got my curiosity and intuition to thank for that (among a few people as well). It simply started with me attending a speaking event and I was so blown away by the whole thing and by my best friends talk that I had to go for a walk afterwards. On my walk, I passed by something that said "Casa Vintage" and my immediate though was "Ohh.. Vintage!". From that moment, everything has been a constant flow of holy shit moments where I met Nathalie, owner of Casa Vintage, who told me she would be moving to the Gili Islands in August with her two kiddos. Beside from vintage, we discovered our common interest in music; and not just any kind of music. We found out that we both were huge fans of Miguel, and so things lead to a glass of wine and Nathalie also bought a ticket to Primavera Sound to go see our favorite man live in Barcelona. Over brunch on a cozy and bohemian Café in Pla de Palau square she suggested I'd come with her to Indonesia for some assistive work and social media skills.
And now, here I am! With only 30 days until I will walk through the entrance of Arlanda Terminal 5 with one heavy luggage and a pounding heart. It is a crazy thing to do, but staying would be even crazier.