Family, Life, Noah

I can't believe that Noah and I are jumping on a flight back to Sweden in a week. Time has gone by way too fast. How do I feel about leaving? Well, it changes about every ten minutes. On one hand I am obviously really sad to be leaving. It has been so good to spend time as a family and watch Noah bond and grow a relationship with his father. I've also really enjoyed getting to know Laityn's side of the family and see how they are with the little guy. The weather too here is so much better and I am really going to miss the sun and getting my tan on at the beach. Sweden is going to be so cold that I won't even want to step outside. On the other hand though I am excited to get back to my house where I can sleep in my own bed, and cook in a large kitchen where I know I have free access to everything. It will also be so good to see my friends and family again. What makes me even more excited about going back is that Christmas is soon here and I am so happy that this year I will spend a Christmas at home with my family. Last year I didn't get to do that and I regretted it a lot. Of course do I wish that Laityn could join us but I am hoping and praying that he will come soon. At least for Noah's first birthday. But either way I will be coming back here as soon as I can afford it.

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Noah

One of the most fun parts about becoming a parent is finding out the gender of the baby and deciding a suitable name for the baby. Some parents have a name in mind and once the baby is born, they feel like the name they chose is completely wrong for that baby. Others are lucky to know that the chosen name is just right for their new little miracle. I was one of those lucky mothers. It took a long time before we decided on the name Noah but once we did, it felt just right. And when I held my beautiful baby boy in my arms for the first time, he was a Noah straight away. I've gotten many compliments on the name my partner and I chose and many have asked me where we got the name from. Here is the truth. Back in the days when I was in my teenage years I watched the one romantic movie all girls must see, The Notebook. I was watching it with my mum and we both fell for the main character played by Ryan Gosling and his name happens to be Noah in that movie. My mother told me that if I find a man like that, I've succeeded in my love life. So as we young girls do, I held on to that hope and one day I figured out that if I don't find a man like that, I'll raise a man as good as that. So Noah became my favourite name. Then as I grew older and I started living in reality a bit more haha, I forgot about it. Then during my pregnancy while the name was still undecided and many different options were hanging in the air, I watched The Notebook once again and all those old memories came back to me. Something inside me just clicked when I thought of the name Noah so I suggested it to Laityn who agreed that it was a beautiful name. My son was a Noah already from the start, ever since I first held him. I may not be the perfect mother, who is? but I will make darn sure that I will try as hard as I can to raise my little Noah to be a gentleman that treats people right so he lives up to the name I gave him. Little Noah, the boy who's perfect to me in every way.

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Hey! I was just reading your blog and found it super interesting. Me and my boyfriend have quite big age difference, I am 20 and he's 16. Is this a similar situation you are in, also do you have any advice about being in such relationships?

Hi! Thank you, I'm glad you like it. My relationship is similar to yours but not the same. It can be really hard sometimes dating someone younger but its important to focus on the good and not let the age difference come in the way. Let him be his 16 year old self at times as he should let you be your 20 year old self to and try meeting each other half way. Easier said than done but that is how we work. And don't listen to any judgement. Love comes in all ages and races. I hope you get something useful from my advice 😊

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I love how you describe your feelings about being a mother so eloquently 💕 He's a real little charmer ! Sorry to read that you thought labour and birth was 'horrible' ..what was it that made it a bad experience?

Thank you so much! He is the cutest little guy ever. Well now when I think back obviously it was a cool thing, because I'd never done it before and that the female body can go through that pain (and be willing to do it over again) is pretty amazing. But I am not good with handling pain and it was just so overwhelming. I also got really sick after the labor which made it that much worse. But like I've said before, I would do it a million times over again. :)


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I know everyone is so sick of hearing about it, I know I am. I try keeping this blog as positive and bright as possible and try sticking to parenthood and my personal life but since this presidential election has been so talked about and has effected not just the United States of America but the entire world, I wanted to open up about how feel about it. As a woman, a newly mother and an experienced traveller with friends from all kinds of cultures and religion I can't actually believe the final results. Just hearing the name Trump scares me to my very core and this is the man who has been voted to rule the United States for the next four years. A man who's told female reporters that the only reason they have their job is because they look good, made jokes about having sex with his daughter over and over again, bragged about sexually harassing several women, kicked a new mother and her baby out of one of his rallies because 'having children and being pregnant is an inconvenience in the workplace'. A man who wants to send all Mexicans to Mexico even though they were born and raised in the States apparently, build a wall between America and Mexico, ban Muslims to enter the country and stop all import and export. He wants to punish those women who have abortions but judging by the way he talks, rape is a joke. I don't know much about politics and I have never taken great interest in it but even I know it is unbelievable that a man like that was voted in to rule one of the most powerful countries in the world. If I lived in America right now I'd be shitting my pants thinking that I won't be able to work or live freely because of my gender, and as a young mother, that is a scary thought. It has only been like 48 hours and I've already heard the scariest things that has happened over there since Trump was elected. Hillary Clinton for sure is not either a perfect person and has made some pretty brutal decisions but with her, having a woman as president and someone who celebrates the diversity, the world would yet again take one step forward, but now USA, you have taken 2 steps back.

One more thing. My word probably means nothing but if I would have one conversation with anyone right now, it would be Donald Trump's daughter, Ivanka. I would remind her of the incredible resume she has and of her hard work she has done in the business world and have her admit to me that she can not possibly think that her father has the right mind to be president.

Please share your thoughts with me on what you think of the results.

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Family, Life

It has been a while since my last blog post... I apologise but the thing is we don't have any wifi anymore :( which is sucky but tonight we are spending the night at a mates (I'm in Australia, I have to call my friends that) place so I'm taking advantage of their internet connection. Noah is asleep and Laityn is getting ready for bed so I am just on the computer. So what have we been up to? Well we celebrated halloween where I dressed up as a witch, Laityn as Jason from Friday the 13th and Noah as a skeleton and then we went trick or treating then ended the night with all the candy getting into my belly as we watched a horror movie. Then we have had friends stay over, eaten good food and today it was extremely hot so for the first time in a long time, we went to the beach. Noah, as always was in shock at first but he got used to it eventually. And I also downloaded a game on my laptop which I love a little too much that I highly recommend: The Binding of Isaac. But I do warn you, it is addicting. I don't really have much to say other than that we are doing good and we are loving the sunshine. Here are some photos from Halloween.

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On Monday aka. Halloween, Noah will be turning 7 months. I can't believe how time has just flown so fast and yet it feels like I've had him my entire life. I think back to the day he was born several times every day and if I could only describe it with one word, it would disbelief. I must admit going into labor and giving birth was probably the most horrible thing I've ever experienced but I would honestly do it a million times over. The first couple of days with Noah felt like a dream, it was unreal but the greatest thing about being a parent is watching your child develop each and every day and feel your heart grow heavier with love as they grow. There is nothing like the first time they grab your finger for the first time, or every time they look at you and smile not because they know how to but because it is you, their mother they see and to them that is the greatest joy. And yesterday when Noah said "mamma" 100 times over, it made my heart beat so fast it felt amazing just as it did when he cried himself to sleep in my arms knowing that my smell and touch makes him feel safe and at home. The best thing ever is knowing that you are the most important person in the world to someone. I just love being a mother, and I have from day one even in this crazy situation that I'm in. But I am not going to let my craziness get in the way of being the best mother I possibly can be to my son because he deserves the whole world and more.

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Life, Noah, Random

Another couple of days have gone by, and I am having a bit of a writers block but I am slowly finding topics to blog about. We have about a month and a half left in Australia and we are all still doing great. Noah is as happy as ever and love spending time with his father, and I love watching them together. I really hope it is not long before all the travelling back and forth can stop so we can all just live together in peace as a complete family for good... wherever that may be.

I thought I would share what parenting has been like these past 6 and a half months... what its really like, and what my expectations were. The truth is I expected being a mother would be much, much harder than what it actually is. For example what I heard about sleeping.

Expectation:

From what I'd only heard from other parents I thought I wouldn't get enough sleep, the nights would be late and the mornings would be early.

Reality:

Truth is, it is the other way around. The nights are early and the mornings are late. It could be just Noah but that baby has gotten my love for sleeping and I am loving that!

Breastmilk is still bubba's favourite and it is the number one effective way to put him to sleep.

Expectation:

It would hurt and it would not be anything special, just a baby sucking on my breast. I thought it would make me lazy and I would just sit down feeling restless.

Reality:

It is probably the cosiest thing ever, and at times I can just kick back but truth is, lazy are those women who do not breastfeed. Try pouring yourself a glass of water (because having milk sucked out of your body dehydrates you like there is no tomorrow), cooking pasta on the stove and talking on the phone while breastfeeding your child standing up all at once.

We are still trying different solid foods everyday and getting used to it

Expectations:

Everything organic, everything homemade, everything by the "baby food schedule"... what a joke

Reality:

I buy fruit packs, and I go for the cheapest one. Then I let my baby try everything. Whenever I am eating something I give him a spoonful just to see how he likes it... I do not follow any schedule. It does not matter whether it is ice cream, mushrooms or something else.

Then there is that famous "nothing but love" feeling we always hear about.

Expectations:

I really honestly thought being a mother would be one feeling... love.

Reality:

I do love my son all the time, and I look at him with heart shaped eyes and even more so for each passing day, but I can also feel stressed, overwhelmed, bored and a lot of fear.

Planning.... ahh

Expectations:

I would be able to plan my life around my child's daily routines

Reality:

What daily routine? Noah sleeps when he's tired, he eats when he is hungry. He's the boss. I can't decide to do something a certain time. No, I have to wait for it to be convenient for him.

The big crying babies we all hear when we are out on the bus, or at the mall or anywhere else.

Expectations:

I would get used to the big baby screams and know exactly how to handle it.

Reality:

I probably have the happiest little boy in the world, and usually when he is upset, he whines nicely so when those rare moments come where he screams bloody murder, no I am not used to it and it can sometimes take me a while to figure out how to help him... 99% of the time though the boobie is magic.

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Family, Life, Noah, Random

Being a mother sunk in fast, but the steps along the way I will have to learn as I get there. I will make mistakes, and I will do all that I can to protect my child or children. Growing up, becoming a teenager, seeing how everyone around me was being disciplined differently, it was clear that when some parents thought that their actions would make their children become what they wanted them to be, sometimes their children just got better at hiding things they knew they would get in trouble for. When I have teenage kids, I want to become the type of parent who's kids can be open and honest about everything with, but then again, I'm sure thats every parents dream. I think we all have to come to terms with that our children will lie to us once in a while, and it is not the end of the world, there are worse things that could happen.

To me, the most important thing with parenting is safety, security and not to sound cheesy but love. It is important to me that I am always there for my son and whatever children I will be blessed with in the future. It is my job as a mother to love him unconditionally, not the other way around. I'm going to raise him to become a great man who won't be afraid to spread his wings, but knows there will always be a roof over his head in my home whenever he needs. it doesn't matter if he's 6 years old, or 60 years old. I will always be there to help out, I will always have extra security saved for him. Not will I ever let myself choose a boyfriend or whoever else in front of my child. My child comes first, always! And even if we might be furious at each other one day, it is important to me that he know's that I love him just the same. Not only will I scold him when he does something wrong, but I will praise him when he does good too, because that is just as important and many parents forget that. I'll never abandon, never leave him be at a time of need or do anything that could cause him harm. I am his mother and I will always be his shield. I will always do my very best to protect him and keep him safe, even when he's grown up and might be physically far away from me. That to me is the most important thing about parenting.

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Life, Noah

We have now been in Australia for about two and a half weeks, and it feels like we have been here longer. I am used to this family life now and can't wrap my head around the fact that we will be leaving in two months. Maybe I'll just have to come back to stay for a longer period of time after the Christmas holiday haha. Who knows? Before we arrived here though, Noah and I spent 18 hours in Singapore, oh my beloved Singapore, and I have promised to blog about it for so long but I have sort off been putting everything to the side since I've been here, but found some free time now. I spent a large part of my childhood living in Singapore, and it has always had a special place in my heart.

We arrived at 6am and I felt exhausted because I had not had any sleep on the flight, but Noah was full of beans, so I picked myself up and used the little energy I had to make sure he was doing good. Changi airport has a pool which I went to, bought myself a coke at the bar which woke me up straight away and Noah took his first dip in a pool ever. At first he was very nervous, he would not let me go, but the longer we were in it, the more he loved it. He even wanted to go back in the water after we'd dried ourselves.

Once I'd woken myself up a bit, I took a taxi and gave him the address to my old childhood home. I was expecting to just see it, but when I got there, it was being renovated so I got the fortune to come inside, look around in all the rooms and have a walk down memory lane. I almost teared up standing in my own room as memories popped up in my mind. For the most part it looked just like I remembered it, a beautiful, big, house. One I can see myself living in once my bank account agrees with me haha. But there were some small details that were different than what they look like in my head.

After our pit stop, the taxi driver took us to the Scandinavian church, where I used to choir sing as a child. However, it was closed unfortunately, but they had a pool that is always open. Noah and I took advantage of the pool and spent a long time swimming and playing around. We later fell asleep in one of the tanning chairs, but woke up from it being extremely hot in the sun. I think it was about 40 degrees which got to Noah and made him extremely grumpy. I hurried up and got us dressed, then we went sight seeing around the area a little until an Uber came to pick us up and drove us to my mother's friends house that lives in Singapore. There I had a snack, took a nap and had a shower, Very needed indeed!

When I had freshened up a bit, Noah and I took the bus to a place called Holland Village where I met up with a family friend, Grace. I got to meet her beautiful family for the very first time. She had four wonderful children and a husband. They ordered noodle soup for me, real Singaporean and it was really beyond amazing. I also had a freshly squeezed watermelon juice and some real nice fruit. It was really a meal to remember and I have wanted more ever since haha. We took the taxi back to the airport, and Noah fell asleep in my arms on the way. I had an alcohol free cocktail at the airport while waiting to board. The plane to Brisbane went quicker, and we both got heaps of sleep. It was absolutely amazing to come back to my old home, and I got those butterflies that you get when you fall in love. I would absolutely adore to live there again someday and it was so good to get to share this experience with my son whom I love more than anything in the world even though he won't even remember it.

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I know, I know! I promised to blog YESTERDAY about mine and Noah's trip to Singapore but here is the thing. Yesterday I was out all day with my lovely little family and then today we have had no power so Wi-fi did not work. The Singapore post will also have to wait because yesterday was another amazing day spent at Sealife in Mooloolaba. Laityn, his friend, Noah and I took the bus around 11 yesterday so we could spend all day at Underwater world. It was pretty cool seeing all the different types of fish, sharks, jelly fish a lot more. We even got to see the seal show but by then Noah was so tired that he did not enjoy it as much as me but my lovely partner took him out while I got to finish watching. Noah is still too young to appreciate or even understand whats going on but for most of it he was in a great mood and enjoyed seeing the fish. Laityn even got him a little Nemo from the suviner shop right before we left hehe. I reckon though that it is not the last time we go there. It is the perfect place to create family memories. Mental note to self though; next time I go to underwater world with a fisherman, be more prepared mentally and physically haha. But I did have a lot of fun though. Afterwards we went to a fish market and bought big beautiful prawns, went home and I cooked up a delicious meal for Laityn and myself. The night ended with us watching a documentary about Charles Manson before going to bed. Today I've been feeling a bit under the weather but I am hoping to feel better tomorrow because I've got a free pass to try out a gym that I want to take advantage off ;) hehe

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