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Soooo... That month went by quickly. I honestly don't know how time can go by so fast however I do know why I've been so absent. Anime. More specifically Yuri!!! on ice. I watched it for the first time last year when it came out (literally the only good thing about 2016) and most recently watched it 5 times in a week. I know. Stop judging me. However the wonderful thing about this obsession is that I have now taken up figure skating. Unfortunately there aren't any beginner groups where I live and even if I had been lucky enough to find a private teacher there is no way of me affording it. I don't really mind teaching myself though, I quite enjoy skating alone to be completely honest.

On top of this I'm extremely behind on school work and I've managed to miss almost every single test/exam we've had since I transferred back to this school (which honestly is an achievement if you ask me). I'll probably end up spending most of Christmas break with a history book and my laptop (r.i.p. freedom).

Along with this I have finally, after nearly two years of pointless therapy sessions received medication (antidepressant-anti ocd-anxiety relievers and melatonin (yes I am that fucked up)). The first night I got to drug myself to sleep with melatonin was so extremely relieving (for lack of a better word), I fell asleep at 10 pm, an hour after taking this little magic pill. Usually it takes up to 5-6 hours so I think you can all understand how big of a difference it makes.

I did manage to pick up reading again which is something I sadly have been slacking with for the past couple of months which means I have to finish two books before the end of December to reach my goodreads goal *panics*.

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Hi everyone, a new day of overdosing on caffeine and getting so shaky that you almost fall down the stairs (thankfully I have friends to hold onto haha). This morning I got up at 7 feeling really okay actually. I didn't start school until 9.45 so it was all good, no stress. And then it hit me, anxiety, panic, overthinking, perfectionism, fear etc. I freaked out, I knew I was going to be late and just texted my friend to tell the teacher that I was having a mental breakdown and would probably not make it to school in time for the weekly meeting with our mentors. I managed to get to school for the first actual class and spent the hour watching winnie the pooh in my yellow sweatshirt cause pooh always calms me down. (I know I'm 5.) I'm honestly so tired I can't even comprehend how I haven't fallen asleep in class today. Currently I'm sitting in a coffee shop (cause addicted) waiting for my mom to come pick me up. I hope you all had somewhat of a better day than I did and if anyone else had a panic attack today I hope you got through it okay. 🖤

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Wow hi, sorry for the radio silence but here's why. In the beginning of our fall break I contacted the guidance counselor and met up with her later that week. I had decided to go back to the school I was in last year basically because I missed it and I absolutely HATED my class to the core. Flash forward to Monday this week I didn't go to school (shocker) and around noon I got the OK to go back to my old school (hallefuckinglujah) and on Tuesday I had my first day back. It honestly feels so freaking amazing to be back and since I'm redoing this year of school I'm actually in the same class as my best friend which has never happened in our 12+ years of knowing each other. BUT then comes the part where I'm in class and I start to feel this pain in my pelvic area, I knew what it was but ignored it, got up on Wednesday, spent a whole fucking hour on my makeup and then realized that there was no way I was going anywhere outside my room that day. Thursday, Friday I was completely fine and then yesterday I woke up with that pain again and I came to my senses and stopped denying the facts, guess who has a UTI...again. I've had UTIs my entire life so I'm not surprised since it's always around the cold months (aka half the year, hi I live in Sweden) but it still sucks. So I'm currently on medication but thankfully I do feel a hell of a lot better today so next week will hopefully run along smoothly without any major disturbances.

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Hi everyone, like I mentioned in my last post I went to the hair salon yesterday. I am so extremely happy with how it turned out, I'm so happy to be bleach blonde again and ever since my brother asked me why I look like Elsa this morning (and I replyed "cause the cold never bothered me anyway") I've been feeling the frozen vibes and belting let it go like it's the only reason I'm alive.
The cool tones will obviously fade with time but I'm making an order on purple shampoo (and possibly clip in extensions) asap.

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Hello loves, this past saturday my brother and I had a little pumpkin carving night followed by me dressing Zoë up like a bat (which might be the best decision i've made so far this year).

I'm currently sitting at a coffee shop after having spent 2+ hours at the hair salon with bleach in my hair. (Stay tuned for pics.)

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Lately I've been in the mood for some vibes (which might not make sense but I feel like it does) and these are some of the songs I've been playing on repeat.

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Hey hope you're all having a good day so far. I just wanted to make a quick little self promo for my little closet cleanse and link my shpock page where I'm selling some of my things. Because I'm a piece of shit and don't have a clue how to ship anything outside of the country I can only sell to people in Sweden. If you think anything's too expensive just send a message and we'll figure something out. ❤️ You can find the link in the menu above.

Here are some of the things I'm selling.

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If I can pick one life changing recipe I've learned being vegan it's gonna be banana ice cream. Being a (I'll eat the entire tub in one sitting) lover of ice cream I can truthfully say that blending some frozen bananas with vanilla extract has changed my life. Because a tub of ice cream is not healthy, whether it's vegan or not, it isn't healthy but bananas are and thank the tropical banana spirits for it.

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I must say that even though the reason I stay home so often is really shitty I appreciate the time I get with my cats and especially since this little one goes all crazy in the afternoon/evening (probably cause all she does during the day is sleep). But either way Zoë is my little baby and I love her to death.

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This weekend has been spent drinking excessive amounts of coffee, planning out my november spread in my bullet journal and binge watching Riverdale on Netflix. Saturday night my mom, brother, grandparents and I went to my aunt's house for pizza night and being the gluten free vegan that I am I made a cauliflower crust (which I honestly kind of prefer btw). I didn't take any pictures so no food porn for you but here is the recipe that I used (I simply just replaced the almond meal with gluten free oat flour). I just recommend adding some extra salt to the dough because is tastes pretty bland without it.
As for my bullet journal spread I decided to go with an evergreen theme since the color has been my latest obsession and I'll probably do a flip through or something like that when it's finished. (Also those are dried apricots if anyone's wondering.)
The trees outside my window get more stripped of green and leaves every day now, this is happiness to me. I wait all summer for the leaves to fall (still waiting for that tree in the middle to get with the season) and now it's finally cold enough to bring out the boots and scarves. And since November is getting closer that also means I can slowly start sneaking Christmas decorations into my room.

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