I was reading my journal from a while ago and found this... needed the reminder
I have been struggling with my own social phobia and feeling self conscious about the way others view me and my life choices. I have started to realize that the only one my fears are hurting is myself. I have a right to my opinion, as does everyone else.
I started by thinking of what I was actually afraid of. I am afraid of no one listening. I am afraid of someone judging my opinions because they are different from their own. Most of all I am afraid of failure. As I thought about what it was that I was actually so worried about I also came to the conclusion that not everyone is out to get me. I set this high bar in my head thinking that people will always criticize me for how I feel. Yes. I will always have someone who disagrees with my views but not everyone is out to judge me. It is all in my mind.
I need to realize that not everything is going to go my way at once. I need to start small. By expecting big outcomes all at once I am immediately setting myself up to fail. It is not fair to myself to set such high standards that are not easily attainable. I need to have goals that I can easily achieve in a reasonable amount of time for the situation that day.
It is ok to be spontaneous. I love to giggle and have a good time. I should not let the opinion of others bring down my own happiness. It is okay to be different. "Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter dont mind." - Dr. Seuss
I need to work on surrounding myself with uplifting people. It will do me no good to sit round a group full of stupid having no common interests. I need to expand my friends and find some that will help and motivate me to be the best I can be.