Megan's Thoughts, Movies & TV
1. Great Expectations- "I Did It"

Finn: I did it! I did it! I am a wild success! I sold 'em all, all my paintings. You don't have to be embarrassed by me anymore. I'm rich! Isn't that what you wanted? Aren't we happy now? Don't you understand that everything I do, I do it for you? Anything that might be special in me, is you.

Sadly, Finn's entire life purpose is to make Estella fall in love with him. This scene is also super emotional because it comes after he *somewhat* snubs the man who practically raised him. He does everything he is supposed to but at the end of the day, he still gets his heart broken.

2. The Basketball Diaries - "I'll Be a Good Boy

This scene is extremely hard to watch. Jim (Leonardo Dicaprio) has fallen victim to a heroin addiction and comes to his mother for money. He cries and begs for her to hold his hand only to turn on her when she refuses to give him money. God, I can't even go into detail on this one because it hits too close to home. What I will say is that Leo's portrayal of a heroin addict going through a withdrawal is one of the most accurate I have ever seen.

3. Legends of the Fall- Samuel's Death

If you haven't seen Legends of the Fall, I suggest you do it as soon as possible. It'll make you experience a wide range of emotions. However, the scene where Samuel dies will make you want to cry and scream. To truly appreciate this scene, you need to know two things: Samuel is the sweetest and most gentle Ludlow brother and he goes to war because he feels it's his duty to help. He's just the best. AND HE DIES. No matter what Tristan and Alfred did, they just couldn't protect Samuel. It's heartbreaking.

4. Girl Interrupted- "You're Already Dead, Lisa"

Lisa: You know, there's too many buttons in the world. There's too many buttons and they're just - There's way too many just begging to be pressed, they're just begging to be pressed, you know? They're just - they're just begging to be pressed, and it makes me wonder, it really makes me fucking wonder, why doesn't anyone ever press mine? Why am I so neglected? Why doesn't anyone reach in and rip out the truth and tell me that I'm a fucking whore, or that my parents wish I were dead?

Susanna: Because you're dead already, Lisa! No one cares if you die, Lisa, because you're dead already. Your heart is cold. That's why you keep coming back here. You're not free. You need this place, you need it to feel alive. It's pathetic.

The full dialogue is insane and I wish Youtube offered a better clip. This scene is so intense because Susanna is giving Lisa her first real dose of reality and we finally see Lisa breakdown.

5. Pretty Baby - "I Cannot Live Without Her"

Yeah, yeah, yeah, I know that technically Pretty Baby is fucked up. She's, like, eleven and married to this much older man who rescued her from the whorehouse. I know I shouldn't be rooting for this movie but this kills me. Belloque is so in love with Violet and wants to keep her all to himself but in the end, he realizes that she deserves a better life. One that he could never give her. So, he lets her go.

I'm not crying, YOU'RE CRYING.

6. The Theory Of Everything- "Look At What We Made"

FUCKIN' TEARS. ALL DAY, EVERY DAY. I can't ever get through this ending scene without crying. It's impossible.

What about you guys? What movies make you bawl like a baby? TELL ME. I'm in one of those moods where I want to watch sad things and cry for some odd reason.



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Megan's Thoughts


My entire body hurts. Philip and I are expecting a lot of new furniture tomorrow so we have been moving things around for the past seven hours. I'm so damn tired but I have so much more stuff to do.

You know what is starting to actually piss me off? The fact that I can't tell you guys a lot of what's going on. A lot of things that are happening in my professional life have to be kept under wraps until contracts are signed and hands shake. BUT IT'S SO ANNOYING.

I almost feel like I'm hiding things from you guys because of how open and candid I have been in the past. Actually, you know what's weird? Keeping my blogging life separate from my personal life. I went into blogging with the two combined but now it's different.

A lot of brands want me to censor myself and I don't want to. I can't. That's not me. I'd rather just not even have a blog if I can't be me on it. What's the point?

But then I remember that I have to make $$$.

I was talking to my photographer friend about this the other day. I asked him if he's been shooting fashion lately. "So-so", was his response. He told me about some of his recent projects before motioning to the corporation we stood next to. "Then, I do this shit to pay the rent".

I can understand how photographers and filmmakers do it, but how do bloggers? I feel like you either go into it as "Hey, I'm writing about this amazing foundation I just found!" or you go into it like me and just write about whatever comes to your mind.

The transition is weird, though. I would've been just fine writing for fun but offers and promises were made. My hopes and motivation went up.

Now, I'm in this weird pickle. Mentally and physically, it feels wrong to censor myself. In fact, I'm not going to do it. Take me as I am or just leave me, I guess.

Something Olivia said the other day made me really appreciate my readers. She told me that I may not have the best blog in Stockholm or the world but I have the best readers. You guys have stayed with me through three website changes and two breaks. You guys understand and accept me. I love you, guys. Thank you.

I guess that's all I have to say. So, yeah, I'm not going to censor myself but I am going to talk a little bit more about film, fashion, and beauty. Not just sex and partying. I promise you I'll never sellout.





Megan's Thoughts, Style, Beauty


My legs hurt from running around the city all day!

I have had the last week off from work and I have 6 more days off. I thought I would spend this time relaxing and getting the apartment ready for Christmas but life got in the way. Meetings, recordings, shopping, working!

Damn, now that I'm approaching adulthood, I am constantly questioning adults and their ability to fit everything into a span of 24 hours. Like, how the hell did my parents work full time, cook, clean, and take care of us? F*ck!

In Sweden, you only get paid once a month so you really have to be careful with how you spend your money. Yesterday, I may have gone a little crazy with Christmas shopping but I'm good for the next 20 days aka payday.

Which brings me to the topic of this post! A boy-approved gift list for the holidays!

Because there is nothing harder than shopping for men, I asked Philip to help me come up with a gift list for my readers who are having a hard time deciding what to buy their boyz.

Here are his picks:


Megan (& mostly Philip)​



Hey guys,

It's been such a busy day. I have barely had any time to breathe!

Tomorrow, I'll be updating the blog with everything that's been going on.

Thanks for being patient, my angels!




Fun with Fours!

I saw a friend post this on Facebook and thought it would be a cute post.

Four names I go by:
1. Megan
2. Megan
3. Megan
4. Megan

If you call me anything else I will not respond.

Four places I've lived:
1. Palm Beach, FL
2. New York, New York
3. Tokyo, Japan
4. Stockholm, Sweden

Four things I love to watch on TV:
1. Family Guy
2. Friends (all day, everyday)
3. Modern Family
4. Broad City

Four places I have visited:
1. Paris
2. Amsterdam
3. Monterrey
4. Zürich

Four things I love to eat:
1. Grilled cheese sandwiches (THE BEST)
2. Salmon sashimi
3. Cheeseburgers from Östermalmsgrillen
4. Brie with crackers

Four words to describe me:
1. Insane
2. Creative
3. Writer
4. Sassy

Four favorite drinks:
1. Water
2. Diet Coke
3. Nobe Aloe Vera Persika
4. Red wine

Four goals I wish to accomplish:
1. Write an amazing book.
2. Further myself within the film or fashion industry.
3. Build an empire.
4. Travel throughout Asia.

Four people I think will respond and hopefully be fun (though I won't be offended if you don't participate):
1. @Oliviahageus
2. @Jasminella
3. @alvafrostrander
4. @vegakarlsson



Life in Stockholm

I can't believe I haven't written in two days. Sorry, y'all.

Anyways, I can't even remember if I have done anything important/noteworthy on Monday. Not that I even drank or anything. I think I just chilled and the day passed me by.

Yesterday was rough and ugh, not even worth talking about. BLEH.

However, today was a good day. I had that meeting I was telling you guys about and it went super well! I got there thirty minutes early and tried passing time by smoking cigarettes outside. But this is Sweden in December and you can't be outside for more than five minutes.

I was so nervous that I was shaking when I walked in. Maybe nervous isn't the right word. I was nervously excited?

I don't want to jinx it so I'm not going to say what it was because if I don't get it I'll be crushed. I mean, I know I'm supposed to think, "oh, if this one doesn't work out then the next one will", but I REALLY want this to work out. It's a real game changer.

There are so many things I'm waiting to hear back about. It's driving me crazy. I want to know NOW. I need to learn patience.

Tomorrow and Friday are going to be very busy. I'm meeting @Oliviahageus tomorrow morning at Steve Terry's salon, You, at 8:30 AM. He's apart of the Lyko team so we also have some business to talk about. Then, Olivia and I are going to fix up our websites and go over other Lyko/Nouw stuff.

After, we are going to two events. The first one is the Lou in Love showcase presented by Mildh Press. It's being held at a dance museum so that should be really cool and different.

The second event is for Adidas. I'm not even quite sure what that one is. Olivia added me to the guest list so I guess I'm just going lol

I fucking love Olivia. I have never felt so understood by another person in my entire life. Except for Kira. She's my Swedish Kira. I miss Kira so much.

Ugh, but seriously, I am so thankful for my little O. She's my sunshine. She's my angel. I fucking love her.