I think I finally figured out (one of) my problems with Eva. She has this amazing ability to make me feel bad about everything I say and do. We talked about doing the laundrey and how she would do it this morning, if I devided them by color and sorted them. But when I went into her room this morning to tell her that my laundrey is in my room, she got a kindof' disspointed look on her face. And the words 'You said that you wanted to take care of your own laundrey, thats why I didn't take it to my house.' slipped out of her mouth. Qiute aggressively. So i responded with a nod and said 'I will take care of it'. So she got upset because I said that I will take care of it later, and her comeback was that, because I forgot she wants to help. But I told her that I was the one who fucked up, so I should take responsibility and do it. It's fine. I should learn from my mistakes. So she raised her voice, so close to a scream, and insisted to do it.
So if I want to be responsible and make up, what I fucked up - she gets mad.
If I don't take responsability for my actions - she gets mad.
Everything I do, say, feel? It's wrong.