As I was walking down the street, head looking down at the ground as I taught myself my mind wanders away, like it always does. I start to daydream and I’m Looking down not to have to meet anyone’s eyes and also to avoid all the dog poo in the street. My thoughts are running around my head, wind is blowing my hair out of my face and it falls over my shoulders on to my back. For a second I think how long my hair has become since I last saw you. I think how my hair growth represents how you and I have grown apart. How much the time we spent together meant to me and how little it meant to you. But in all these past months my mind more seldom wanders towards how your body fit into mine and how your head lay upon my chest, how the kisses we shared could stop time and how your hands knew exactly what to do to make me enjoy every second of our time. I more seldom find myself thinking about you, but even so, the impact you had on my life will never change. I come to a stop, the light is red and there are many cars so I stop and look to both sides and when there is a gap I confidently cross the street. On the other side I stop and look back. Suddenly I see you on the other side of the road, you stop and wave at me and then continue. I blink and you are gone.
The banana I’m eating does not taste good, the tea I’m drinking tastes dull and I throw them both away. Now I don’t think about you anymore, I’ve decided. No more, I’m not taking your shit. If you don’t want me someone else will want me. Too bad the next guy in line leaves me in the same situation as you did. How much you have in common you two and yet how different you both are. It makes me giggle. And I remember how much I’m a sucker for a one-sided love story. I start up a text conversation with “him”, let’s call him “Daniel”. Daniel asks me if I want to hang out tomorrow morning and I of course agree, we decide to meet at ten am and hang out. We continue texting and my mind leaves you. I visually see how the book of my life turns a page and just like that I’m over you.
“Goodnight <3 “ my screen lights up “goodnight ^^” I respond and then put my phone on flight mode. Daniel and I had talked for several hours and it felt like no time had passed by at all. When I think about Daniel the first thing is not how amazing his body is or how his voice just makes me want to fall at his feet. The first thing that comes to my mind is how challenging he is. He always challenges me, he always questions me, he always wants to prove me wrong, he always looks into my eyes and I can see him drowning in them. I can see his entire being loving how my mouth moves as I’m talking and his gaze crosses my face and falls upon my lips how his desire to have me is growing for every second I’m in his presence. I start to fall asleep and I start dreaming, of course about Daniel and how I just want him to come to his senses and understand that I want him too and that I have left every other guy to be with him and how I don’t care about anything else I just know, feel the energy coming from he if you will and I know he wants me. I also know he will have me. Eventually it is inevitable, just like oblivion is inevitable.
Music is blasting in the club. There is no air and the heat coming from everyone's body makes us all stick together when we touch. We are dancing in a circle my friends and I and I'm enjoying my current high. Suddenly when I switch places with one if the girls I meet his eyes and despite that there are hundreds of people around and about 20 people between us he is staring and me. He watches my body moving to the beat of the music and he slowly licks his lips and bites it as he continues to dance with his crazy drunk friend beside him. Even though it only takes a few seconds I feel it. The spark, the butterflies in my stomach. I continue to dance and my favorite dance song comes on and I scream and my girls and I start to hysterically dance and go crazy. Seconds later I feel a hand slowly toughing my back landing on my ass working its way onto my hips, instead of feeling scared I know who it is and I take one of my hands and slide it over his thigh, making him come closer to me. I feel his nose burying itself in my hair and I hear him inhale a large portion of air as he smells my hair. I turn around and put my arms around his neck, his other hand lands on my waist and he pulls me closer. I look into his eyes and he bends down his face, we breathe heavily and I breathe in the air he has let out as we try to continue to dance. My arms wander down his chest and stomach and find their way inside his shirt, I feel compelled to feel his body and I let my hands touch every inch of his chest and abs. He tilts his head backwards and let's out a vague moan. I put my hand inside his back pocket of his lightly washed jeans and feel his amazing behind. I don't even care that people from our class, that people we see everyday are all around us. I get the feeling that time stops. Seconds later my arms are back around his neck and he leans towards me suddenly he grabs my ass with both hands pushing me closer on to his body and I can feel him getting excited, he pushes me upwards and because I'm so short and he is so tall I bend my neck backwards and our lips meet.
His mouth opens a little and I open mine, our tongues dance together, lips fitting perfectly together. His hands touching my body, my hands on the back of his head, his hand grabs my hair and bends my neck even more backwards and then we stop, look at each other and he just mouths " I want you, right now"
He spins me around and his hands are placed at my hip bones, I put my hair to one side of my neck and he starts kissing my neck, nibbling on my skin our bodies pushing together not even being or wanting to be separated by a millimeter. My best friend looks at me and gives me a smirk, I know she is so happy for me that I finally got what I want but I can see the worry in her eyes. She knows already what I am denying to let myself know.
I can't hold myself any longer I stand on my tippy toes and whisper to him to say bye and meet me outside, he nods and I start hugging my girlfriends, he gives his boys their handshake and we walk outside. We grab the first cab and as we come inside I ask yours or mine? He suggests his. I say the address and buckle my belt. The car starts driving and he leans over kisses me and unbuckles my belt. He taps his hand on his leg and I immediately scotch over and sit on top of him. We start making out and we don't stop until the driver says, “we are here now”. I give him the money and tell him to keep the change. We hold hands all the way into the apartment building, when we wait for the elevator he leans against the wall observing me, I smile and twirl around and ask him what he is looking at. He grabs my arm, pulls me in and says. You have the most beautiful eyes on this entire planet; I will never get bored looking into them. He unlocks the door and I step inside. Because I've been here before several times I immediately open the fridge to get the pizza I know he has left over from earlier that night, I pour a glass of Coca Cola and sit on the counter top. I start eating he pizza and he drinks the coke. I give him a bite of the pizza and he moans. Fuck that's good I just laugh at him. It's insane how he can workout everyday and eat pizza everyday and still he looks this good. I take my jacket off and let it slide down on the floor he does the same. Suddenly I do something I never thought I would have the guts to. I tell him to close his eyes, he does as I say. Slowly I slide off my panties from underneath my skirt and I tell him to give me his hand. I put my panties in his open palm and I start giggling. He opens his eyes and smirks, he got the hint. He tells me to close my eyes, I do what he says. I hear him move and I feel him kissing me, he kisses my nose, my cheeks, my chin, my neck, my décolletage, he is standing in front of me and I feel he has no shirt on anymore. He says I don't like wearing clothes, and I don't like you wearing clothes. I put the pizza slice in my mouth and lift my hands above my head, he slides my tank top of and I still have my eyes closed but from the noises he makes I can tell he saw my boobs and that he likes what he sees. I hear him unbuckling his belt and jeans and I finally put the pizza on the counter top. Can I open my eyes? I ask, Yes he says in the same moment he slides me to the edge of the countertop and he says: I'm going to fuck you now, right here and then he pushes inside me. Thankfully I'm already wet and I've wanted this for a long time so I'm so ready for it, I just wasn't ready for how good it was going to feel. He fucks me on the countertop and we kiss, after a while he lifts me up and carries me to the bedroom. He slides out and opens my skirt so I can get out of it; he pulls his trousers down and tells me he wants me to ride him. He lays down on the bed and I tease him kissing his lips, kissing his neck, chest, every one of his abs (FYI 8 of them) and continue down towards his hips kissing both sides of it, sliding my tongue towards his junk and just as he holds his breath and angles his hip upwards I stop. I sit on top of him and he sits up smile wide on his face. I stand on my knees and he comes inside me. I push him onto the bed and start doing what I'm definitely very good at.
We fool around for a period of time and when he comes he asks if he can help me finish. He does, his tongue has been in the game for long for sure because he exactly know what to do to make me fall into a euphoric stage. We lay beside each other; we kiss and look at each other. We both lie on our sides and stare into each other’s eyes. We just lie there and he pulls me closer. I bury my head on his chest and I fall asleep in his arms.
I wake up from the sun shining in through the window. I feel his arm between my boobs and the other one is supporting my neck. I make my way out of his tight grip and turn around and look at him. He is so cute, gorgeous and I can't believe he is lying there next to me. But he does and I've never been so happy. He opens one eye and I close mine as soon as I can so he won't see I was staring at him. He kisses my forehead and closes his eyes. I open mine again and continue looking then he pulls me close and I fall back asleep.
to be continued....