I'm back in Germany for 4 days and I still feel like I'm dreaming, that I wake up in a minute and lay in my bed in South Carolina. I can't describe what it feels like being back after so long, I don't know what I expected it to be, I just feel really weird-confused-lost. It is the hardest thing waking up every morning and realizing that I can't hang out with my Southern friends and family every day anymore because they are over 7oo0 km away from me and I just can't change it. Of course I feel home in Germany too but it is like having the biggest crush on a state you can't stop thinking about and South Carolina will be in my heart forever. Since I am 14 I have the dream to move to the States one day and this year pushed me even more to pursue my dream. People missing out on going abroad because they are insecure, fraightened and listen to other people more than to their own heart. I want you to know that going abroad is the best desicion you can ever make in your life!!! Nobody will ever take away those memories, experiences and feelings you had and that you will remember for the rest of your life. Jealousy will be a big part of your whole trip too. People are mean sometimes and don´t like seing other people happy. But even now that I might not have the exact same group of friends as I did before I left for the USA I´m not any less happy. Of course there are ups and downs abroad, just because it's an amazing year doesn't mean its easy. But during this year you know what it feels like to be independent, happy and strong and besides the language you incredibly increase in your maturity and confidence. So travel, experience and enjoy every second of your life! Time flies by way too fast anyways! There is this quote some of you might have heard before, but it reflects my feeling to 100%. "You build a life for several years and leave it for 10 months. You build a life for 10 months and leave it forever. Which one is harder?" That was definitely the hardest part about this whole experience. Leaving my host country. After everything you have established, the realtionships, friendships, even the little things you loved in a whole different country - leaving is the hardest thing you´ll ever experience. It is forcedly saying goodbye to the people you love, know, need and have seen for so long. And there is no set date when to come back. I´m so sad writing the post and I didn't want to end my blog like this but I felt like I had to tell people that are interested in going abroad what it´s like to come back home aswell because most of the time it´s not easy at all.
I want to say thank you for everything that has happened to me this year, all the people I now call family and also y'all who went with me through this amazing journey. I am so blessed. If there are questions, you are welcome to ask anytime! Svenja xo